I hurt myself tonight  

evilgothgirl 51F
326 posts
6/8/2006 7:52 pm

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6/17/2006 7:49 pm

I hurt myself tonight

Just to see if I would bleed...

Yes I did...

37 stitches later....I have no way out...

It amazes me how if I were 17, I would have been admitted...jeez, this girl needs help...

At 41, I lie and say it was a drunken fall through a plate glass window and they let you go home with more drugs..

Stupid fuckers!!! It was the prescribed drugs that I hoard and much booze that let me do the deed in the first place...

I am just sorry that I did not suceed this time...fuck it there is always tomorrow...right..

How's that for optimism???

Whatever!!!!!

I am so sick of being the slut for my NSA lover..after 2 years!!! Hello...love me or let me go....

So I join this site looking for what???some NSA just to make my self feel sexy and wanted...nope...once again just a used slut...

I give up..and hope that tomorrow never comes...

To those I have made friends with...much love to you as well as all happiness..

To those who have used me and abused me...I wish you all the worst that life can give....live long and suffer much!


rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
6/8/2006 8:52 pm




rm_imtheone42 74M
485 posts
6/8/2006 8:58 pm

You don`t know me and whatever advice I could give probably wouldn`t mean much but I hope you have someone you can talk to. I`m sure lots of people care about you. I care and I`ve never met you.

I`ve found that whatever problems I`ve had in life disappear in time and when I look back I think that they seem so insignificant now. I`m sure that will happen for you. I`m not the preachy type and I don`t mean to butt into your problems but I just want you to know that there are some really nice people in this world. We just have to seek them out and take charge of our own happiness. I know that`s easier said than done but believe me.....life is worth the effort.


Djeeper1987 47M

6/8/2006 9:07 pm

Sorry your going thru this.

Carpe Diem


rm_Eeyore56 60M

6/9/2006 9:06 am


I had a coach in high school that said "All pain goes away!" (There was more, of course, but that was the gist.) As I thought about it, it was true - if we die (from the pain or the injury), we supposedly feel pain no longer.
But then, M*A*S*H had that song that said "Suicide is painless, and I can take or leave it, if I please." (And I have contemplated it myself!)
The choice is, of course, yours to make....but I find life to be preferrable to the nothingness of death. (As a follower of Druidism, I don't believe in an after-life.)
Just some random musings.
My bottom line is - it isn't necessary to do it. Like the weather in MI, just wait a few minutes (or days) - it will change!
Good luck and contact me if you'd care to discuss things.


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