Blog Entry 1: The Fast and The Frustrated  

eumenides_k 40F
17 posts
3/24/2006 9:44 am

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Blog Entry 1: The Fast and The Frustrated

I signed up on Hotmatch primarily because I wanted to see what it was all about. A friend of mine had used the site to enhance her sex life, and it was working out well for her while that was what she wanted from life. I simply wanted to peruse, and I had to set up a profile.

Now, I'm beginning to become intrigued. And my normally average to high sex drive has skyrocketed. I'm still terrified of meeting people, for a couple of reasons:
A.) Rejection's a bitch
B.) Promiscuity is a health risk
C.) ...that one's going un labeled, but I know what it is.

The thing is...I'm starting to question what I want and need at this point. There is a huge part of me that wants even just ONE fabulous fuck. One of those "take me, I'm yours to dominate, and for fuck's sake talk dirty" types fuckings that will satiate me. But I wonder if it would just make me hungry for more. I wonder if I'm scared of more tender sex, or if the thought just bores me. I guess it's a great idea in theory, but it involves so much intimacy and sharing. I don't know how I feel about that right now.

And yet, there's always that niggling little clock, ticking off the days until I hit the first BIG ONE. I had so many goals for the big 3-0, and at least one of those I will not achieve. And I'm feeling apathetic about that.

What I'm feeling positive about lately are some of the conversations I've had as of late. I guess I just wonder if I have the wherewithal to follow through.

Maybe I'm just a conflicted nympho...

LOL


spacecadet561 60M

3/24/2006 1:03 pm

Take it from an old horn dog: it's never enough. Every new sexcapade begets a desire for another one. Each one needs to be a least a little racier, naughtier, more dangerous, sexier...something different or at least of a different intensity. However, you may not get progressively more mind-blowing orgasms every time. Sometimes a simple, gentle, make you feel good but not spent fuck is just the ticket to make a blah day better. I've had some great sex, a lot of so-so sex, a modest amount of just shoot a wad sex...and a lot of sex with myself that also runs the gamut.
If you get into cyber sex, that can be fun as well as safe. Browse the chat rooms and you'll usually find some combination of people getting it on in a serious way.

SpaceCadetรน


mailmantrouser2 54M
534 posts
3/24/2006 1:49 pm

Why don't you try some of mh fantasies - no rejection, no health risk, no whatever that is. See my blog - Oralman. If you like, I have more, and different ones, or I will write one specially for you . . .

Call me MAILMAN (I deliver)


DIVISION77 39M
8324 posts
3/24/2006 7:55 pm

eumenides k,

In this game you are either all in -or- all out. You have to put yourself out there in order to gain anything and rejection and/or STD's are a very real risk. There is no other way.

If you want that "one fabulous fuck", you will have to bare everything with the real risk of gaining nothing.

It is what is is. You have a beautiful complexion, very nice.

BTW:Tagged!

DIVISION77

DIV

"My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur


eumenides_k 40F

3/25/2006 7:12 am

    Quoting DIVISION77:
    eumenides k,

    In this game you are either all in -or- all out. You have to put yourself out there in order to gain anything and rejection and/or STD's are a very real risk. There is no other way.

    If you want that "one fabulous fuck", you will have to bare everything with the real risk of gaining nothing.

    It is what is is. You have a beautiful complexion, very nice.

    BTW:Tagged!

    DIVISION77

    DIV
Yeah, I know that much. I guess it's just the muddlings of my mind.

What's "Tagged" mean?


DIVISION77 39M
8324 posts
3/26/2006 2:25 am

    Quoting eumenides_k:
    Yeah, I know that much. I guess it's just the muddlings of my mind.

    What's "Tagged" mean?
Click on the link and find out.....

DIV

"My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur


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