Scared  

eternal1969 47M
838 posts
10/6/2005 9:08 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Scared

Only when you have lost someone
Then her importance sinks in


My friend,T came back from Bali just a couple of days ago. She shared with us that she was dining at the same restaurant where the bombs went off. Life was that fragile.. and she could have been there if she was still there a few days later. I didn't know she was in Bali, her parents didn't knew she was in Bali. So for all it mattered, if she was at the bomb blast, nobody would have realized she was there. None would have sounded an alert to look for her and she may as well just vanish from the face of the earth.

I felt angry. Angry that she could just move around like that without telling others but hell she's single, young and free spirited. But I guess I was angry.. maybe more scared and afraid of the realization that I nearly lost her. It made me realize even more that the night we spent together was not just in a moment of passion but in essence a lot more. Something which she did not want me to fall into deeper.

But this episode has open my eyes to my suppressed emotions locked deep in my heart. Now I really miss her... a lot...


goddessofbitches 41M/33F

10/6/2005 10:20 am

SOmetimes it takes something that big to make a person realize their true feelings.

My cousin was about to get married when she was at the bank when it got robbed. SHe was so scared for her life that she nearly died from an asthma attack.

Later on...she realized she wasn't marrying her fiance for love...but because everyone expected her to. Since they had been together for 4 years.

It's amazing what you learn about yourself and your feelings for others when near death comes into play.

Hope that you and her can rekindle some kind of love...

HUGS~~~MANDY

Always The Bitch


rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
10/6/2005 6:23 pm

For Christs sake, get a hold of her!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe thats why this happened to you.


georgina666 36F

10/7/2005 3:55 am

a friend of mine was at bali at the timing of the bombing too...and she left the building 15 minutes before it was blowed up. talk about being at the wrong place at the right time. if you live by "carpe diem" theory, then you might want to confess but she might not reciprocate unless she had felt that same tinge of fear of losing you too during the incident.

somehow as the world go by these days, i can't help but realize that life is too short to ponder over many "ifs" and "buts"...we'll never how to cherish and seize the moment until tomorrow became the real last day for us.

you have your fears and uncertainties, the same goes for tomorrow and the day after. more often not, we find ourselves weeping over spilled milk or crying our hearts out at someone's funeral just because we didn't manage to tell him/her how we had felt, i.e. affection, guilt, regret, love...decision is yours, all the best my dear.


eternal1969 47M
1634 posts
10/7/2005 10:41 am

goddess... ya you are so right. Like they say .. you have to die to live again


eternal1969 47M
1634 posts
10/7/2005 10:42 am

Saint... I wish I could but she slips away from me...


eternal1969 47M
1634 posts
10/7/2005 10:43 am

Hey George.. where indeed have you gone? Ya maybe I should do away with one of my "if"s and drive up to KL to meet up with you


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