Too tired to tattle  

empress_evie 39F
134 posts
9/20/2005 9:45 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Too tired to tattle

I got home from Joe's yesterday, tasting of his cigarettes and gin, smelling of sex and sweat... and thought - Wow. What a fantastic afternoon. I have NO energy left now.

I don't. I'm utterly worn out. Not your fault, Joe (although you had a big part in it... hehe) - I was well on my way to complete burnout a few days ago, but kept the appointments I'd already made. Now I've slept for 13 hours and it's still not enough. I'm going to class today, but under protest. I've gotta recover.

And relax. It's hard to relax when you're... well, me... I've got this shy side and I fight it daily, overdoing it in fact - I hear that a lot of really outgoing people, actors and etc, are secretly shy and picked their careers in part to overcome it. Anyway, meeting new people constantly is exhausting for a shy person. And yesterday, Joe, satisfied and having worked overnight like he does, fell asleep next to me, and I envied him. I wished I could just let my muscles - and especially my mind - relax and fade out...

I finally got some (intermittent) sleep, although I still feel like I need more. And blogging, recreating an event such as yesterday afternoon, can take it out of me. So I'm gonna take a little break.

I might take a little break from here too. I've met plenty of new people, they are quite cool, and I enjoy spending time with them... maybe it's time to spend time with my schoolbooks? They've been neglected lately. Whining, "Evieeee! READ ME!! I'm looonely!"

Huh. Maybe I DO need more sleep if my books are talking to me.

rm_ivyboyforu 42M
2 posts
9/20/2005 11:52 am

Well, maybe once your books stop nagging you, you'll reconsider, or come back from, your break... I'll admit mostly selfish motives here, since I *just* stumbled upon you in time for your burn-out... and if you go into hiding, I might miss my chance to catch up on all you've blogged in the past... (I'm working backwards, and only got to about a week ago... since, you know, I have to do at least *some* of my work here...)

But of course, once you've recharged, at least you know where to find me.....

youscreamiscream 39M

9/20/2005 7:22 pm

Maybe you just need a comfortable pair of arms to fall asleep in... no all out exhausting sex - just cuddle, relax and nighty night. Knowing your libido and mine, that's not easy, no, but the best sleep I get is when I'm next to someone.

dano6332 56M

9/24/2005 8:07 pm

Evie, I hope you catch up on the school work. Take your time, relax and enjoy our beautiful fall weather. Just a suggestion but try a nice back rub and fall asleep next to your partner next time. It is very relaxing to wake in someones arms instead of rushing (or having them rushing) out the door. Just a thought. xo Dan

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