If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all.  

duststormdiva 51F
7253 posts
8/9/2005 6:40 pm

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6/29/2007 12:45 pm

If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all.

I don't know what has been happening with me lately. But I have been tested way more than I want to be. Since my father passed it seems that the stress is not letting up.

My instructor for the online class I am taking has showed very little understanding for my position as caregiver for my father and has showed even less sympathy for my fathers’ death. He gave me 100% credit for the week before my fathers’ death and docked me tremendously for the week after his death.

I spent eight hours working on a team essay yesterday and after I saved it and closed it, I went to retrieve it to double check it and absolutely NOT ONE word of the 2500 I added to the report was there. Nada! Zip! Nothing! I searched for the document for two damned hours.

I am not too concerned for my grade, I am failing the class anyway, and I just have not conjured up the energy since my fathers’ death to try and pass the class. I was shooting for a passing grade, but my instructor does not think I will even get that. He thinks I have not done anything for my team therefore I’ll not get the 30% credit I deserve.

I am so anal about my grades and am currently a straight A student, but will now have a failing grade on my transcript. *sigh*

As a teacher I do what I can to encourage my students. I just can’t see setting a student up for failure, as I feel my current instructor is doing.

I know the extra stress will only help me grow so I guess I am not too upset that I keep getting hit with little piddly shit that keeps me stressed out. I have decided that I am going to postpone my education for a while so I can collect my thoughts and emotions from the past year. I also decided that I need to work on organization for my work, and having more free time will allow that.

Today was the first day of school for the year and it went very well. I was happy about that. As the stress continues to pile on, I try to keep a positive attitude. Normally I am very happy and so it is not a struggle to keep a smile on my face. Being exhausted, I feel that I struggle with the positive attitude.

Anyway, make it a great day!


rm_major259 50M
101 posts
8/10/2005 11:34 am

Ugh, wow. Hang in there sweetheart.

duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
8/10/2005 9:49 pm

Thanks major259


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