What are You Looking For?????  

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8/12/2006 8:04 pm

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What are You Looking For?????

Had a conversation with another member of a group I belong to about why I'm here and what I hope to find. (There was More to it but in the end I think that's what it boiled down to.)

Why am I here??? To make new friends. Life at home has been...well I'm not sure what it's been...a couple years ago I was accused of sometime I didn't do. (At least I don't remember doing it if I did. You Know the saying about the mind being the first to go as we get older.)
These accuzations got back to my wife and she rather then talking to me about it just said she didn't trust me or anything I might say, and didn't want anything to do with me on a personal basis anymore.

For the last two years I've been hoping that there was something I could do to rekindle the flame. I guess I just don't care to try anymore I give-up I admit defeat. I finnally decided to get my own bank account and say enough is enough.

This is so hard for me because I STILL LOVE HER. I don't want to quit...I don't want to give-up...I want to love her and have her love me.

If she askes for a divorce I won't fight her on it. The thing is we've been raising my oldest granddaughter and I can't let that go. She's my granddaughter not my wifes. the thing is I'm a long haul truck-driver. Life on the road is fine for me but I couldn't subject my granddaughter to it.

My oldest son and his wife know of the problems and I have asked if they might be willing to take her if a divorce become appearent (still waiting to hear back on that).

So why am I here???? Well to find something I thought I needed. I was hoping to find sex...yes thats right I said SEX. It's been a little more then a month since I signed up as a standard member and no I haven't found a sex partner...to be honest I haven't really even tried...I found something better....I found friends. To the members of the group I'm in THANK YOU, to those wwho have made coments on my blog or just took the time to read it THANK YOU. I would like to concider you all to be my friends.

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