Punch Drunk Love????  

dreamluvrsc69 47F
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11/8/2005 10:29 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Punch Drunk Love????

My last blog was me at a low and depressed state. My spirits are up today. Didn't think I'd get emails, invites to networks or even responses to my blog. It lifted my spirits. There are some freaky people out there, gee and I thought I was weird. Not that freaky is bad, weird isnt either. I also ran into some people from my old circle of friends. One of which I did share some erotic encounters. Man, those were some fun, kinky, sexy, freaky times. Kinda got me back into wanting to write about sex encounters again. But gonna have to fulfill some fantacies. I can get a few things goin on, get some guy and get all the sexin I want. But I dont know if that will be enough for me. I want for something that is more than just sexual pleasure. The friends with benefits was fun for a while. Then I would go home, or they would leave. And the lonely part sneaks in, the emptiness is overwhelming. I have been alone, with the exception of the weekend boyfriend times, for 2 years now. I dont know if I am setting my standards too high. Since my divorce, I've only dated seriously 3 guys. 1st one was fun, sex was great, then he became an ass. We broke up. Then 2nd one came along, we broke up several times, but got back together. And during one of our break-ups I dated #3. #3 Turned out to be strained. He had the sex drive, but lacked in the fun, adventurous, and honest areas I want for. I dont want to grow old alone. I dont think I will, I hope not anyways. After reading my responses to my last blog, I realized that there is hope for me. And today I put my emotions to the test when #2 called to check up on me (or looking for a "booty call"). Well I realized that NO WAY am I going to DEAL with his BS!!! I DESERVE THE BEST!!! To those who replied, thank you for your encouragement!!


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