Midnight in My Room...  

dreamluvrsc69 47F
10 posts
11/9/2005 9:15 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Midnight in My Room...

What seems to be the deal with me and males? I try to please and all I ask for in return is pleasure. I walk away from the things, persons mainly that hurt me. Only to have them come back around, for what? To inflict more pain on me? Does #3 HONESTLY THINK I want him back? NO I DONT. He could completely change all things about him, his job, his hair, his car, his apartment, his roommate. HE is still the same person. I have read over so many crazy and fucked up emails in the past 3 days. Some I wonder if they even GOT THE "IM NOT LOOKING FOR A FUCK BUDDY".. I have been there, DONE that. I Want something more secure, reliable, stable, and committed to me other than the every other weekend fuck. I WANT A DAMN DATE!!!! Most of my friends keep setting me up, introducing me, but the person they introduce me to never even asks for my number, and I sit and doubt myself as to why he didnt ask me for my number. R. says I'm intimidating when first meeting me, I dont think I am, and I am working on that. Id like to think Im very friendly. T., constantly telling me to stop rushing love. Is that what I'm doing? Trying to force someone to fall madly in love with me? Monster made the comment that I'm 'eye candy' and he'd "be proud to show you off". WHAT does that mean? Am I a barbie doll? NO! Am I a trophy? HELL NO! Maybe I should just give up all together on this.... and if its MEANT for me to find someone, then the forces of nature will make it happen, FATE! I tried to make my own fate and I failed. So now, I will just let go of the hope that I want for someone. And face the facts, I am destined to be alone.....


Iluv2pleaseu121 47M  
7 posts
11/20/2005 5:23 am

Your not destined to be alon your just tired of being alone! Trust me when I say that everyone goes through this! You are just being you when yu meet someone, thats all. Dont listen to all their bullshit about things you should change. From reading your profile and reading this your just a normal woman wanting normal things!It looks to me that you have a good head on your shoulders and great personality, and realy thats all you need. The only thing you lack is the confidence that you need, and that comes from dating losers! Most guys are just wanting a piece of ass, but it takes a real man to want to make someone whole! Trust me...your doing the right thing, and STOP looking...because it probably is right in front of your eyes!
Marv


rm_Hunkdaddy10 33M
96 posts
11/21/2005 6:31 am

Hang in there. You'll get what you want. Somehow we always do. It just takes a while some times.
But... I have to be honest, with pics like what you have posted, it's hard not to be turned on by you. You are an attractive lady. Guys will make make off color comments, especially on this site! You just have to ignore that garbage.
You're a sexy woman. I honestly don't think it will be hard to find a friend and maybe a lot more.


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