Love rescue me  

dreaming4u1955 61M
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1/7/2006 2:16 am

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Love rescue me

Love Rescue Me

Hmmm, what is love? That’s a loaded question huh? Lot’s of different opinions could come from this I’m sure. I believe the way to answer this question can only be done from the individuals perspective. We all look at things differently. Any Star Wars fans out there? Are you of the “Force” or another term might be of the “Light”. Or are you of the “Darkside’? This has a definite bearing on your definition or viewpoint.

I’m going to give this essay from the viewpoint of the “Force” or “Light”, pick whatever term you like or use your own. The reason for this is that I believe myself to be on the “Light” side. What side are you on? It doesn’t really matter. It’s “all good”. Huh? This guy nuts or what? Let me explain. Light is defined by shadow. How else could you know of what properties you reflect in the world if you did not have an opposite to gauge yourself by? The “Dark” serves a purpose to this effect and is therefore essential to our understanding and choice. These are not absolutes but there are many levels to each side. We all walk a path but at different points along it. It is just the evolution of the soul. That is if you believe you have a soul. This is getting a bit off tracks and perhaps material for a later discussion so I will turn my attention back to “Love”.

I am not in any real need of rescuing in the material sense. I work, have shelter and food… all the essentials of life. My only sense of rescuing pertains to finding some relief from the boredom of being alone. I enjoy a huge measure of peace and tranquillity and yet… there is still a longing inside me to share with someone else. I think most would agree with the opinion that life is better shared but… whom to choose to do this with? That is the question a lot of us struggle with. It could be just one person or many. It all depends on what we need for our growth.

I will offer some thoughts on what I believe “Love” is “not”. “Fear” is not Love. Fear is the opposite of Love. You cannot have a Love for something or someone and be afraid of it. If your life is so filled with fear, you don’t have any room for love inside you. If you want more love in your life you need to shed your fears and make room for love to take its place.

Am I saying to throw all caution to the wind? No, of course not. That is unless you like being a victim. Not my cup of tea. But I am willing to venture outside my box and risk rubbing up against the unsavory elements to polish my personal perspectives about what I would like to have in my life. I didn’t get any guarantees with my birth certificate and I don’t think anyone else did either. We just try to do the best we can with what we’re given and learn along the way. That’s all anyone can do.

Is there anyone out there who has some Love to share with me? Or do you fear me? Is it too much to ask, if I write you, to just say one way or another how you feel? Rejection doesn’t bother me. The ladies here have been very kind in rejecting me lots and I “thank you”. I don’t want to be with anyone who I would make unhappy. That’s not what I want my purpose in life to be. It is just a bit disappointing though that some don’t even have the courtesy to send a reply of any kind. Reflection of their character? Mmmm, you answer that. I have my own opinions.

I would also like to make the distinction between Love and sex and partnership or marriage.

I think that partnership and marriage is more like a business deal than anything to do with Love. Yesssss, certainly Love has to be in the contract but it is only a part of it. Two individuals come together and agree to give each other certain things beyond the luvvy duvvy stuff that satisfy certain expectations or needs. When the requirements of the contract are no longer being met, as sometimes happens, divorce may not be too far away. Love goes away. Love in relationships seems to be a conditional thing for a lot of people. And that’s OK. Just depends on the individuals.

Sex is for procreation or enjoyment. Something shared by two individuals who feel a connection for one another and for one reason or another. Sex is not always tied to Love but it might be. Or it is just a hormonal thing that needs to be satisfied. Each of us must make the choice on how to react to these situations. Personally, I like to have the feeling of connection and Love to be involved. But in the absence of that, to be honest, I have also taken, any port in the storm. Do I feel like I was using or being used? The answer is NO. Two consenting adults spending some mutual time and enjoyment together without harm to one another is acceptable to me.

A loving feeling was exchanged, even if it was only for a short time. True Love cannot be demanded or held in chains. It can only be given of free will. I was married for 20 years at one time and enjoyed a lot of those moments. Over time though, it seems our contractual agreements were not being met and so divorce came. It was not a matter of who did what to the other but more just a separation of ideals than anything else. It takes two to make or break a marriage and both share equally in the outcome.

Am I physically unattractive to women? Mmmm, perhaps to some. Does that make me a bad person? I smoke cigarettes. Does that make me a bad person? I don’t think so. I like myself the way I am. It is not so much what others may think but more how I feel about myself that matters more. I have seen some of the beautiful and non-smoking people out there and who just might be considered quite unsavory. We cannot be all things to all people and I understand and accept that. It’s all a matter of perception and ideals. What do you choose? After all, it is your God given right and ability to make your own decisions. “No one” makes you do anything you do not want to do. “You” choose your own thoughts and to do for yourself.

So who out there is willing to offer a bit of time and effort to rescue me? (grin) It’s your choice.

skyeblueyes111 61F

1/10/2006 9:05 am

Very insightful and reflects many of my thoughts and feelings. A helpful essay.

dreaming4u1955 61M
26 posts
1/10/2006 11:25 pm

Thanks for the comments Skye. It was one of the high points of my day. This is my first attempt at blogging and not sure where it will lead. I’m not overly concerned about it either. I think I’ve finally realized that life is more about the journey, than the destination. We can only live our lives moment by moment and I look to squeeze out every bit of joy that I can from them.

I would have to say that it was Sarah, who gave me the inspiration to give this a try. If she were to read this, she would know whom I was talking about and perhaps a smile would cross her face. That would be nice. To bring joy and warmth to someone else’s life, is always a welcome comfort.

It feels to be a bit therapeutic, without the cost of a shrink! lol

Funny… how such a simple action, might have an affect on someone. Every thought we think, everything we do, or don’t do, colors the landscape we live in.

My quest for love has brought me to this place for various reasons. The mission has not succeeded to the degree I was dreaming of… yet. Until then, I will share what I can to whomever has a sympathetic ear. It may still come to pass, the dream I speak of. There is still breath left in this body.

Even if someone disagrees with me… great! At least I got you to think and take action!

Live, love, laugh, grow and be happy!

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