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The truth be told!
The truth be told!
I just feel like I need to be open and honest here. I started this process on my own, without my wife knowing because she thinks it's weird to meet people on line, especially for sex! We have had a threesome with a guy she knows through her work and then she has fucked him a couple of times without me. I was a little (well more than a little) hurt and jealous since our sex life was less than great when she screwed him. And I felt left out and she didn't think it was a big deal since we agreed to this openness.
I felt like she was finding the time to had wild sex with him but not anything but average "married sex" with me. She has been totally honest about all of this and I thought being open would help put some spice into our sex life. But with our very busy schedules and her running a business we don't seem to have any spark left for us.
I have tried to find a woman to "play" with but, again our busy lives don't give me much time or opportunity to. I have gotten one response to "our" online request for a woman and am excited about the possibility of having another woman join us. However, I'm afraid she will "blow-up" when she finds out I met her here.
So, my question to you readers is what so I do!
I don't want to sit back and just wait while she has all the fun and I get resentful and I really don't want to "close our marriage", I really feel we should both be able to enjoy sex with others and each other! HELP!!!!
Last night we fucked for the first time in a week or so and as I was rubbing her body she said "this is boring", afterwards I thought about it and she was right! We know each other almost too well and everything is the same...
I know what she will do next and vice versa. We have a rut that we have furnished quite well and the only thing I know is it will hurt us if we don't change it!