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The Quest for HER
The Quest for HER
I'm just kinda writing what my mind is spewing.I know she's out there somewhere, I mean there has to be somebody for everyone , right? I mean i've been with partners (3 last year-the start of me
semi-actively looking)but they didn't work out. I find some things to like about these ladies, but not enough. I want the total package, I wanna like EVERYTHING about my partner or more realistically, most things and be happily annoyed by what I'm not crazy about/not looking to change anyone! I found partners in which the sex was great, but I couldn't relate to them , I just wasn't comfortable being me and freely conversing. I found someone who I had alot in common with until I realized that they REALLY liked the sound of their own voice! I'd end up watching TV(lo volume) as she went on and on and on about the stuff that we DIDN'T have in common,while we were on the phone.And when something actually peaked my interest, she'd interupt me and take over the conversation OR she would start talking to her birds or dogs,as in pretty lenghty conversations with her pets while I'm hanging on the other end of the phone!!! Anyway, i guess I'm trying to say ,so far I've found pieces of what i'm looking for , but I want more before i make a committment. The longest of my past(recent) relationships was about 3 months(and it lasted that long cause I couldn't get a word in edgewise to try and breakup!).I 'm GONNA keep searching because i feel I wasted too many years thinking someone would magically fall out of the sky, that it would just happen and fall into place. It feels good to get things off my chest. I'm not looking for the PERFECT woman,but I do feel that there's has to be someone out there perfect or pretty darn close for me! Let's hope my quest isn't a delusion !!!