Baby Steps  

dicegrrl 39F
146 posts
11/20/2005 11:29 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Baby Steps

This may not be a big thing for most of you but it does represent a change for me. This week I have gone to the museum and the movies by myself. I never go anywhere by myself! I hate going to the grocery store alone. It's a little antisocial tendency coming out and fear of being pathetic at the same time.

I can't tell you how overwhelming it was to walk into the museum and just let myself be taken by the artwork. I swear I almost got chills. I didn't have to linger at a piece I didn't like or explain why I did like another one. I just floated from one piece to another. Of course the culmination was my absolute favorite painting, Mrs. Cecil Wade by John Singer Sargent. I stopped in my tracks and a silly smile spread over my face. I hadn't seen the original in probably 8 years or so and I had forgotten how it touched me. That was a very nice day for me.

I confess that I love Harry Potter. I used to say I would never read it but I was challenged by a guy at work to read one and I ended up reading all of them! I have read the first 4 two times. So of course with the fourth HP movie coming out I was dying to see it. I had made plans with my sister in law to see the midnight opening show but I cancelled on her. Instead I was sitting at home Saturday afternoon and was like "Screw it. I want to see it and I'm tired of waiting for someone else to find the time to go with me." It wasn't as a bad as I thought it would be. I think it was partially because it was so busy that no one really noticed me. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie even with all the plot mistakes and omissions I was glad that I finally got over my hang up and got out there.

I know this may seem minor to most of you but for me it's really quite huge. I have been in a self imposed isolation for almost three years and I am finally ready to get out into the world, or at least get my toes wet.


zoopc42 47M

11/20/2005 12:10 pm

hey! good for you. first steps are the hardest.

I always get kind of weird in the museum here. first off you can get right on the painting here and breath on them if you wanted to. you can see the brush strokes and everything. I think it is so cool that these painting have been around for hundreds of years and you have to wonder, if they were a person, hwat kind of tales would they tell.

I went here saturday as well for the new HP movie Thought it was the best yet. I am still only on book two though. think watching the movie is good first then the book. Like watching all the deleted scenes when you read the book

Anyhow again, good for you. keep striving to get farther


SweetLoadInKC 45M

11/20/2005 3:55 pm

Congrats to you!!!! I don't think I could go to a movie by myself. Of course, I tend to want to wait for video since it's cheaper. I'm a patient person so I can stand to wait the extra 6-9 months. No problem.

I also don't think I would go a museum by myself.... mostly because museums aren't exactly my thing.

So a huge congratulations to you. Maybe one of these days I can take the huge steps that you did!


open4fun2005 58M/50F

11/20/2005 10:48 pm

That is great! You should be very proud of yourself girl! I dont mind doing things by myself...I actually enjoy doing things alone sometimes....where I dont have to carry on a conversation with another...or worry if they are enjoying themselves. I have gone to antique shops and movies alone several times...I never give it a second thought that I am not going with someone.


robertj908 59M
2 posts
1/15/2006 5:59 am

I had to respond to this. Mrs. Wade is among my top five in the museum. Sergent come up a lot in my reading since I am interested in the esthetic movement, Pre Raphealites, and Arts and crafts. Though contemporary, he doesn't really fit those categories. I remember one description of his painting style. He would stand away from the canvas in deep thought, then in a moment of inspiration would lunge at the canvas as if stabbing it with a sword when he knew just how that stroke fit into the composition. It is also said that, in spite of his cosmopolitan life experience, he was really quite shy and humble particularly in the presence of the aristocrats that he painted so often. I often wonder when I look at Mrs. Wade what kind of interaction took place between the two of them. She is so marvelously beautiful and delicately feminine, yet at the same time iconograghic and socially austere. I recommend the book John Singer Sargent by Carter Ratcliff. Lots of good color reproductions interspersed with a good short biography. You could probably get a used copy fairly cheap on alibris.com or some such. A personal note: I am not an art snob. You just happened to hit upon a painting and painter that I really like. Nice to know someone else feels the same way. Robert


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