Waking up to reality even all the tears in my eyes are not enough to fill the pain inside of me  

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6/19/2005 7:46 am

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Waking up to reality even all the tears in my eyes are not enough to fill the pain inside of me


When I met her that day as she threw smile my way, my response was the same what a feeling I felt when she made time to have a conversation with me. The age difference was about 10 years but it didn't matter because it was her heart who caught my attention. It was conversation after conversation that made me more in love with her. As she told how her husband treated her bad and the divorce was near. We started to date as a year went by every thing was great except that he was still living at home she said because of the children they had she was giving him a chance to get on his feet so that he can survive. The time flys when your in love all the fake words that came out of her mind leading me to believe one day she was going to wake up next to me. It's been almost four years and two month's ago I decided to be truth to myself and let all my worst fears out I was fearing that day when she was no longer in my arms and no kisses and I Love You's in the phone. How hard is it on me when she sais I dont understand her please!!I would get on my knees and ask for forgiveness when we got in a fight taking the blame for her faults with the wicked smile on her face she thought she could do no harm. All the lies she painted of our future, were all sad shattered dreams of her nasty way to minipulate my mind on her cruelty on my life. Now im glad shes gone out of my soroundings what scar is left in my heart so strong was my love for her that even surgery could not fix, my pain inside how hard it is to try to forget her lips ,and her beautiful face that give me goosebumps all over of a freightened heart that has been scarred for life as I now the drip of the tears will never disappear because all the tears in the world would make up for the lies that she told me. Now Im depressed on her lies because my love was true and I was not fake so till this day I walk with my head up high knowing that I gave it I all I had, im not mad,just sad because of those I Love's You's in my ear that till this day I wipe of that tear that rolls down my eyes of pain inside confined in a life sentence called love what a choice of a word, it should be called pain because that is the side effect that it brings to my heart that is covered pain.

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