So What Am I Doing Here?  

deanc56 60M
3 posts
4/11/2006 11:39 am

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So What Am I Doing Here?

I've been married for over 25 years. Make no mistake, I do love my wife, and I am in way looking to replace her or hurt her. Let me see if I can explain.

Imagine eating the same meal for 25 years. Breakfast, luch, and dinner for a quarter of a century. No matter how good it tasted at first, no matter how much you love that food, after that long, it's just dust and ashes washed down with vinegar. Oh, sure, sometimes we have cardboard and salt water for variety, but still -- it doesn't matter how much hot sauce I put on it, it's still dry and tasteless to my jaded palate.

I want to feel the butterflies again, that whole-body tingle that comes from not quite knowing what comes next, the excitement of exploring a different body, a different set of wants and needs.

I'm 49 years old. I'm not dead yet. I'm not even over the hill yet, but I can see the top from here. I've spent too long on the sidelines watching and wishing. Now it's time to get in the game, see if I can still run, maybe even score (bad pun most definitely intended). Anybody else out there want to put on the pads and take the field?

papyrina 50F
21133 posts
4/11/2006 12:21 pm

imangine starving and not even having three meals aday

I'm a

i'm here to stay

saddletrampsk 54F

4/11/2006 12:21 pm

I feel your pain..good luck in getting what you are looking for sweety..

deanc56 60M
2 posts
4/12/2006 9:28 am

"Life is a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death."
Rosalind Russell as Auntie Mame

Is that because we don't recognize the bounty spread before us for what it is, or because we're too afraid to dive in?

Thanks, saddletrampsk. I think the feeling is a lot more widespread than anyone is willing to admit. It's just that I have finally gotten up enough courage to "come out" about what I feel and do simething about it.

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