the first woman of my life...  

david05_96794551 46M
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7/9/2005 3:48 pm

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3/31/2006 5:14 am

the first woman of my life...


the first lady that i have met, was a beautiful and active young woman that i got to know, from my workplace when i was working in the shipyard many years back... she is not a local here, and are on contract to work on board the ship at that time...

we start out as friend... will always play host and bring her out for some sight seeing around singapore whenever i can... at that time, i know that, she is already attach to someone back in her hometown... do understand how it feels like to miss the love ones back home while working in another country. so, the only thing for me to do is to cheer her up, giving her a shoulder to lean on whenever she is down and to give moral support in her carer...

i'm a compassionate and caring guy in nature... soon, i get to know her family and also to chat with them over long distance call... and she get to know mine too... i should have control my feelings at that time... and as time pass by, we develop naturally into a relationship of more than best of friend... and this makes her upset and difficult to choose between her guy and me... i don't blame her for it... i have to respect and love her as who she is, and did not even want to give much pressure on this...she decided to return to her hometown, to do some business of her own after her contact has ended...

a week before she left singapore, we were to meet up as usual at the jetty... while, waiting for the ship to dock, i suddenly felt a bleeding kind of feelings inside my heart and tears starts to flow out in my eyes that i can't even take control of to stop my emotional breakdown... when i saw her coming out of the ship, i tell myself not to let her see me crying and manage to overcome it... she notice that my eyes are sore and ask me about it, and i just have to fake a smile and tell her that it's due to my late night work... she told me not to over work myself too much and my heart melts when she say those words, have control the emotion and remind myself again...all i want to do at that time, is to spend those precious moments together...

i did not go to the airport to sent her off that day when she left... we do keep in touch with each other for about a year... till one day, she told me that she's going to get married... cos', she is expecting a baby... do feel sad when i hear that... on the eve of her wedding day, we had a long conversation over the phone... and she told me of what she and her mom had talk about us... her mom advise to her is that, if to compare the two guys, she would find that i'm more sincere for the feelings towards her and would let her choose her own happiness no matter who she choose to be with...

she told me that, other than the guy that she is marrying and in love with... she realise that she is also in love with me, at that time when she was working in singapore... i told her that i can feel the love that she has for me and i just want to respect her of who she is... till now, we are still keeping in touch with each other as good friends...(eight years...)

MataKhan 106F

3/12/2006 12:18 am

>>>>sweet story,dont think i can deal with it...

Love bring pain,but without loves and pain,will be bloody boring.Geez..what am i suposse to do????

Mata


david05_96794551 46M
390 posts
3/15/2006 1:24 am

mata... love is sweet and sour at times... it does makes you feel warmth and comfy not forgetting the pain and unrest moments too... as we grow in times... we do learnt from it... the good... the bad and the ugly side... in all... it's about accepting the person of who and what they are... the same goes to you... to be who and what you are... not to be what others thinks you should be... you'll realize it one day yourself...


MataKhan 106F

3/22/2006 10:34 am

Love,bloody hell, why love is so painfull haha,i wish its likes candy,taste sweet all the times.

love and pain,go hand in hand.
maybe i'm not created to loved and be loved haha,too damn complicated.


david05_96794551 46M
390 posts
3/23/2006 6:50 am

mata... love is pain when it's being hurt on... it's the kind of betrayal from the one that we trusted most... everyone deserves to loves and be loved in times to come... it is not complicated being in love... and it takes two hands to claps though... sweetie...


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