The struggle continues  

dasher121 36M
3656 posts
1/4/2006 3:35 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The struggle continues

It has now been going on 6 days since Ive had a cig. I must say.......Ive never had the feeling of wanting to claw my own eye balls out before now hahahaha. It sucks, but Im sticking to it. Im getting sick of lollie pops, and gum, and anything else that isnt my dear old sweet killer friend.

What I miss about smoking:
- everything.
- morning cig with coffee
- that after meal puff
- going to the bar really blows now, lollie pops and gum taste like shit with beer or liquor.
- did I mention everything, ok just checking.
- I now sleep like shit, am fidgety all of the time, and cant focus on shit. I know its part of withdrawl and will end............soon.
- the fact that I get very irritated now and easily too, just another side effect I know.

What I dont miss about smoking:
- everything.
- smelling like smoke all of the time.
- non-smokers giving me fucking lectures, yeah dont have to listen to that shit anymore Im one of you now muahahahahashahahaha.
- being a slave to something thats going to kill me in the long run. Thats a big one right there. So on with the struggle.

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
1/4/2006 4:06 am

You know that insane urge to claw out your own eyeballs? Please don't give into it.
Ewww...candy and beer?? Bad mix, I'm sure.

Proud of you. You'll make it. You know that.

AnEnigma517 59M

1/4/2006 5:30 am

Hang in the my friend... that was one of resolutions (again) this year. Just keeping about the things you don't miss, and the cravings will start getting fewer and fewer. Nip it in the bud now, and in 20 years or so you won't be like me... annoying cough when I don't have a cold, etc.

And... welcome back! Now, start writing!

(Princess Lips)

1/4/2006 7:34 am

but the kissing will be so much better!

congrats babe- keep it up!


TheLilFondler 33F  
2576 posts
1/4/2006 9:20 am

you have my respect! i am sure if i quit smoking at this point someone would get hurt....

i lost my virginity years ago.....
but i still have the box.....

rm_Blue_Leopard 43F

1/4/2006 9:45 am

I quit on the 1st... and I've been wanting to caw my eyeballs out after the first 30 minutes

dasher121 36M

1/5/2006 3:13 am

Thanks for the support peeps, trying really hard here. It sucks so bad, but that is life. We sometimes must do things that we dont want to, ok most of the time we have to do that hahahaha. But in the long run it will be well worth it.

rm_1hotwahine 63F
21091 posts
1/5/2006 10:52 am

As hard as it is now, it'll be harder later. I quit when I was about your age and can't imagine my life as a smoker all these years. Or maybe I wouldn't have to.

I hear you on the slave part. That's what I see in my smoking friends. Some in denial, some aware of it, but all slaves.

I can't think of anything offhand, but try to find a substitute that is more savory than sweet (oh hell, I opened myself up with that comment) . Like something that 'matches' beer more than candy. MIght result in adding a few pounds, but one vice at a time, yeah?

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]

jadedbabe78 105F

1/5/2006 5:21 pm

The clawing out the eyes feeling is why I'm weaning myself off instead of going cold turkey! (yeah yeah, a sad ass sorry excuse to hang on for as long as I can, lol....I will quit, I will quit...soon!)


dasher121 36M

1/6/2006 2:42 am

1hot- congrats to you for staying off of it for so long. Its people like you who inspire me to keep at it.

humbold- it is an evil entity, i def agree with you on that. so simple a thing that can become a major corner stone in your life. you dont even realize it until its gone. stupid little things are so hard to do without it now.

jade- actually, there's nothing to be ashamed of in the weaning. a drug counselor that i interned with told me thats one of the best and most successful ways to do it. if you smoke a pack a day(20 cigs), then cut down to 18. do that for a week, then the next week cut down to say 17-16 a day. do that for a week, and so on. Much luck to you.

SaucyNSassy 39F

1/7/2006 1:25 pm

I'm a few days behind but I couldn't pass up saying the same thing everyone else has!!! I am SO proud of you!!! I can't imagine the world losing a Hot, sexy and intelligent guy like yourself to lung cancer! Keep it up! It is sooo worth it! Now, you not only look good, I'm sure you smell good too.

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