Cracks in the Ceiling  

dasher121 36M
3656 posts
3/6/2006 10:05 am

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3/9/2006 11:56 am

Cracks in the Ceiling

Have had a REALLY shitty last couple of days, strange family issues, weird changes that came out of no where and now are hurling at anyone in their path at 90 miles an hou......wait make that 92 miles an hour.

Its funny in a delerious type of way how life can just knee cap you out of no where, completely blind side an individual. And now Im in this foul mood. No no, the dude is not giving up on life. Thats a fucking cop out to me, to just lay down and give up and only think to your own problems. Well, what about all the hurt and anguish that you would cause everyone else around you by just giving in?

Not here, not ever. Ive strived through too much bull shit in life to just lay down and say "Fuck it". So once again the Dude moves forward because the problems will move forward too. So you just have to out step them, and then you are in the clear.

So as I write this rant of rambles, I find myself glancing up at the cracks on the ceiling. They all come from different places on it, but they all intertwine and meet in various places, all linked together in unobvious ways.

I wonder here if thats how our lifes problems work. They crack us, but they dont ever truely let them break us. Of all those damn cracks in the ceiling its still stronger than ever, but different from their presence. All of our lifes mishaps will intertwine and form bonds of cracking and similar hurts and headaches.......but they dont destroy us, they dont become our end. We choose to become our own end, we choose whats going to be the tidal wave that takes us under for good.

Well, Im far from my tidal wave, and WAY far the fuck away from my end. So Ill just lug all of this bull shit right up on the good ol back, hunch down and grind my toes into the dirt. Because its going to be a long and steep hill to climb. But when I get to the top, its going to be a new day.......and the view will be great.

No load is to great to bare, its the journey that can break us.

rm_corezon 53F
3376 posts
3/6/2006 10:36 am

Sometimes problems and crappy stuff does come in spells as though there are unknown forces working to coalesce against you...just gotta hang in there until they pass and things smooth. Don't know why. I'm not majorly into astrology but I've seen the "Mercury in retrograde" thing...several things I've read and experienced lately also hint at energy of the most interesting comments was one made on my own blog about the "Superstring" theory...I haven't replied to it yet but I did look it up; the newest in theoretical physics. Interesting stuff to ponder. Guess the explanation works as well as any. Sometimes shit just happens. So the best you can do is keep your attitude positive and ride it out.

_Safira 53F
11260 posts
3/6/2006 10:39 am

Remember, Darling ... Bend, break, be reborn ... No one can undo you. *much, much love* (As always, let me know what I can do to help, even if I have to come to your "neck of the woods." Safira

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rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
3/6/2006 11:01 am


jadedbabe78 106F

3/6/2006 11:05 am

I say 'Fuck it' yo the BS....not to life in general. By saying 'Fuck it' to all the BS, it makes me feel above it, like I can stare at it straigh in the face and give it the bird, like it can't and won't beat me.

Remember to rest along the way as you climb the hill. It will bring you energy and new perspectives on things. I know.


rm_mzbitch2u 47F
63 posts
3/6/2006 11:22 am

i feel for ya babe, cuz i've been there, and am still trekking up that hill. they say things happen in threes, well i hit my third, then fourth, then fifth. and u would think after that i wouldve been down and out for the count. but u cant, cuz no matter how tough things are, theres always something, some glimmer of hope, that you've gotta keep striving to get to. and although it may not seem it, theres probably a lesson or two to be learned from it.

so....chin up and all that sort of thing, and i hope your view from the top will be as nice as mine.

and no matter what.....youre still a pretty awesome dude!!

MrNuttz05 49M

3/6/2006 2:17 pm

Act like you're in 'BAMA' & roll with the tide, my brotha'... You have been there for me, so allow me to return the favor, from another males point of view... Curveballs, sliders, changeups... Very seldom do we get that fastball right down the middle! That's what makes this life pretty interesting. But sometimes a walk in the park is just as good as a hit... Be you! That's what got ya' here... That's why we come!

rm_1hotwahine 63F
21091 posts
3/6/2006 2:31 pm

I like the image of the cracks being separate in some places and intertwining in others. Can't always see that unless we have the proper perspective. I don't know how to fit it into the ceiling metaphor but that is also true for little strengths and bonds and support. We might see them only within moments of times, but you'd be amazed at how those good things weave around and back into our lives as well.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]

rm_art_persists 51M
1789 posts
3/6/2006 9:06 pm

I'm not giving advice because there's nothing to say. you already said it. I think your attitude will get you there.

BTW I was at a biker all night club in Sudbury and I called the bartender "dude". He's really big and mean. He says "don't call me dude". I shut up after that.

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
3/7/2006 2:46 am

Lifes pains and heartaches can bruise us, crack us, yes...but you are absolutely right...we choose to let them break us or not. No doubt in my mind that your strength and determination will prevail and you'll reach the top of this.
Just keep moving forward, keep breathing throught it. One breath, one step, one day at a time.
Just breathe. You'll get there.

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
3/7/2006 3:44 am

Glad to see you have a positive outlook

Keep that chin up!

Purry {=}


goldinboy2 60M

3/7/2006 5:34 am

What doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger. As for the cracks spackel,sand and paint.

rm_AnOddGirl 57F
3469 posts
3/7/2006 10:36 am

You should see my cracks. Dayum Levees. It is truely astounding what 6 feet of water after 11 days can do.

(Princess Lips)

3/9/2006 11:09 am

we all get "settling cracks"


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