when did i start getting old..?  

dark_whispers 38F
159 posts
3/1/2006 2:48 am

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3/6/2006 11:53 am

when did i start getting old..?


and before you laugh.. or yell.. or even argue.. just listen.. or read.. shrugs..

i wake up most mornings.. in pain.. my joints.. ache.. alot.. moving around is painfull.. i finally manage to throw myself out of bed.. get moving.. and i look in the bathroom mirror.. and i see... this person.. i really dont know her.. she has bags under her eyes.. whole face is swollen and puffy.. and she moves around soo damn slow..

a few hours pass.. and the me.. that everyone knows and loves is around.. the girl.. who is a nut.. who bounces around.. or not.. laughs.. depends on my mood.. there are times im very serious.. others.. im a total jokester.. i told someone the other day.. i feel like im 27 going on 13.. i feel like a kid.. at times.. young.. carefree.. with everything in front of me..
other times.. i feel the weight of it all slippin away from me.. rushing out.. gone.. to some place i can never get it back from..

people who see me.. and dont know me.. or even those who do at times.. usually go by my looks as to the type of person i am.. i suppose this works for some.. not really though.. at times.. im seen as a total kid.. just outta highschool.. *at least these days i dont get mistaken for being a 9th grader anymore..* and then im talked to .. like im an idiot.. angers me.. on 2 levels.. one.. im not a fukin idiot.. and two.. why do people talk to kids like they are stupid.. young yes.. without all the life experiences as some.. true.. but not idiots.. we were all late teens before.. we outgrew it.. so will they..

or if someone sees me in one of my many modes of dress.. and then sees me in another.. they are usually in for some sort of shock.. believe it or not boys n girls.. i clean up nice.. *laughs*.. and .. there is alot more information floating around this mind.. than even i give myself credit for..

and back to the feeling old part.. that started this whole blog.. my mind.. at times.. slips.. and i cant remember anything.. i dont think thats really part of getting old for me.. i think its a remembered safety net.. but it adds to the general over shadowing of age creeping up..

my parents wonder when ill have a baby.. alot of my friends who have known me for years as well.. my family.. yea.. they are a bit odd.. my stepdad thinks im too old to be going back to school... and that a baby would be the best thing in the world for me.. *sighs*.. he is from a different time of thought.. shrugs..

i need to take a hot bath.. bake the cold achiness out of my body.. i hate it ..when it seeps in.. and doesnt seem to want to leave.. no matter how warm you seem to get.. hugs..kisses n lixx..me...

rm_mtnravyn 60M
890 posts
3/1/2006 5:00 am

Aging is not 'lost youth' but a new stage of opportunity and strength. Betty Friedan

The answer to your question is "You start getting old when you stop enjoying your life." So many have said "Age is a stae of mind" and that certainly seems to be true.

As to "talking down to" youth, it follows the line from Kris Kristoppherson's "Jesus Was a Capricorn" He said "Everyone needs someone to look down on" People who talk down to others are doing so because they think they are 'better than' I have found some wonderful wissdom from those younger and some absolute close-mindedness and stupidity from those older.

You just concentrate on being you and explorinbg all your gifts, including the sensual ones.


magnum9000
166 posts
3/2/2006 3:39 pm

Hey Girl,,,,All I have to say on this, is a persons life can play a very large role in how someone feels...So in my own life I have found if you live as stress free as possible...it helps make a person into a happy-go-lucky type,,also helps in sleep and overall feel...Looking at your pic I would not use the word old in describing you to anyone...SO YOUNG LADY have a nice day,,and thanks for the reading...


tillerbabe 55F

3/2/2006 11:12 pm

Take my hand and join me in exploring the days as time passes. Absorb it all, be yourself, an dmost importantly keep that 9th grader alive in your heart! {=} Aleve is a wonderful invention I have found! LOL!


dark_whispers 38F

3/6/2006 4:06 am

    Quoting rm_mtnravyn:
    Aging is not 'lost youth' but a new stage of opportunity and strength. Betty Friedan

    The answer to your question is "You start getting old when you stop enjoying your life." So many have said "Age is a stae of mind" and that certainly seems to be true.

    As to "talking down to" youth, it follows the line from Kris Kristoppherson's "Jesus Was a Capricorn" He said "Everyone needs someone to look down on" People who talk down to others are doing so because they think they are 'better than' I have found some wonderful wissdom from those younger and some absolute close-mindedness and stupidity from those older.

    You just concentrate on being you and explorinbg all your gifts, including the sensual ones.
mtnravyn.. thank you for the quotes .. they made me smile.. and think.. i will never stop exploring.. *smiles*.. and no worries.. i will always be me..


dark_whispers 38F

3/6/2006 4:09 am

    Quoting magnum9000:
    Hey Girl,,,,All I have to say on this, is a persons life can play a very large role in how someone feels...So in my own life I have found if you live as stress free as possible...it helps make a person into a happy-go-lucky type,,also helps in sleep and overall feel...Looking at your pic I would not use the word old in describing you to anyone...SO YOUNG LADY have a nice day,,and thanks for the reading...
*winks* why ty.. for the most part.. i have gotten rid of most of the self inflicted stressers.. i do believe.. occasionally.. some still catch up to me.. i think they serve to spur me further though once i get beyond the crying/screaming/tantrum parts.. laughs..
im looking at some yoga and pilates classes again.. they help as well..


dark_whispers 38F

3/6/2006 4:13 am

    Quoting tillerbabe:
    Take my hand and join me in exploring the days as time passes. Absorb it all, be yourself, an dmost importantly keep that 9th grader alive in your heart! {=} Aleve is a wonderful invention I have found! LOL!
*gladly takes your hand till darlin.. smiles*.. yes.. i think the kid in me.. is pretty well established.. *laughs.. she aint goin no where* some days.. i have found.. even after waitin a bit to get going.. i still need to take an aleve.. laughs.. but.. im hoping the yoga will help me again..


dark_whispers 38F

3/6/2006 4:15 am

*agrees*.. i am usually pretty easy goin and bouncy all at once.. *smiles*


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