almost 7am..and i still havent slept..  

dark_whispers 38F
159 posts
1/13/2006 3:42 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

almost 7am..and i still havent slept..

im so tired.. and i feel so hurt.. so mad.. so frustrated.. so lonely.. so confused.. i feel like screaming and pounding into something.. i feel tears that slowly drip down my face.. i feel the rage..that grabs me at times.. feeling my hands clinch.. my jaw lock.. my eyes go dry.. and then..i fall into this bit of depression.. when i truly wonder what is going on.. and the why of it all.. i was reading thru blogs of friends.. and they are writing the same thoughts i am having.. and i know it will pass.. i know.. it will go.. its not that im so afraid of what im feeling now.. its more i get bothered by the coldness i feel at the edges.. its like im slowly freezing.. and i will be locked inside this ice..

i want to curl into a ball.. and sleep thru the winter.. i want to take off this damn mask.. and just hide.. i do not want to cling to anything.. i just want to process it all .. and wake up.. to the sunshine..

rm_lickathong 38M
16 posts
1/13/2006 4:03 am

Hey! im in from montreal was looking 4 some fun,how do u party around here,need someone to help me get around so halla at me
maybe u can show me a good time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hope


1/13/2006 4:51 am

Think we all feel like that sometimes,just some don't dare admit it
thanks for sharing

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
1/13/2006 5:28 am

*opening my arms to you*
come and rest here... cuddle up to me...
the sun is shining now... and I promise you it will still shine when you decide to get up...

rm_mtnravyn 60M
890 posts
1/13/2006 5:42 am

Our way is not soft grass, it's a mountain path with lots of rocks. But it goes upward, forward, toward the sun. Unknown

It would seem that the chaos in our society is being reflected in our selves. It is also not gender specific. It seems the only choice we have is to walk our path and honor what presents itself. By sharing the process it does make it easier to move forward. Thanks for your presence.

barbiebunny 36F
5597 posts
1/13/2006 5:57 am

gatsby move over i cant sleep eiother

Its good to be...ME

rm_ohsolustful 58M
859 posts
1/13/2006 6:31 am

Lifes a journey, sometimes the road gets rough, keep hanging in, believe in yourself and your inner voice, stand by your convictions, don't let anyone punk you out, and tell em all to fuck off if they dont like it...Your the only real person you have to answer to....

Sorceror07 54M

1/13/2006 6:47 am

you got an Aztec sendoff coming your way... who needs sleep? lol! time to p-a-r-t-aaaaay!!

...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!...

cdnheat 55M/58F

1/13/2006 6:48 am

Darlin' its the winter doldrums. We all get it. Its particularly tough up here, in Montreal. The weather drives us inside for the most part and nice days (when its -10 F.) are few and far between.

Most of us have developed our own survival skills. What you are doing is one of them; talking about it, sharing it and putting it out there. Just make sure you read your own posts and ask yourself if there isn't some way for you to pull yourself out of the dumps.

From what I've seen - with the exception of a few jerks - there are a lot of interesting folks. Lots of interesting topics for discussion.

Just keep in mind, you aren't alone in this whole doldrums thing. It too, shall pass.

sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
1/13/2006 6:58 am

I hope you feel much better soon Leave the mask behind if you don't want to be behind of it anymore.

rm_lmtbird 43F
1 post
1/13/2006 7:48 am

me too

dark_whispers 38F

1/13/2006 8:22 am

thank you everyone.. i appreciate you all.. my day..has already started looking up.. smiles.. hugs..n kisses to all..

fantasylover_05 62M

1/13/2006 8:43 am

Sweet Whispers

We all have to dark days when we simply want to curl up in a ball and escape from teh world and its injustices...

I am truly sorry you are struggling... and based on your previous post... it is certainly understandable!

I hope this will help.... in virtually every "bad that has befallen me" in my life... GOOD has come... I can, after the passage of some time, look back on my life and the dark days and difficulties I have endured and see very positive things that have come from them.. be it directly or indirectly!! That gives me such strength!!

Use the situation to find somethng BETTER!! You have an OPPORTUNITY now... you can do with it as you wish... you can let them get the better of you or you can give them the "kiss my ass" and get a BETTER job!!

Don't let the bastards beat you!!


AltumHunksUnite 53M

1/13/2006 10:38 am

Darlin', you should come visit us at Rudy's tomorrow night. We'll cheer you up.

Let me drive. I like the view

a_poetman 45M

1/13/2006 11:54 am

still looking for those lixx tho...

*searching everywhere*

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