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You know, I'm sometimes accused of putting my foot in my mouth, and damn it, there's no doubt I've been known to do it.
I posted a totally stupid question in the advice column of the AdultFriendFinder magazine last night. I was hammered and trying to make a few points so I could view a profile, so I just pumped out this stupid question where I said I "used to fuck a lot of women in NY" and blah blah blah... I didn't realize so many people read that shit and I got about 30 nasty comments on it. I think I (like I said, it was a stupid post, I was hammered anyway) I had a nice cock or something, and some guy said "there are guys in New York that pick their teeth with cocks your size." Ouch!
It's never nice when a bunch of people think you're an asshole. I wish I could take back that post, but I can't. Oh well. At least I don't know any of those people. But I have to give them credit for the often creative way of ripping on me... hell, _I_ would have ripped on me.
But the points were well used. You know, there just aren't a lot of women on AdultFriendFinder around where I live so you've got to find a way to make it happen.
AdultFriendFinder is a little strange. There are certain people and places on here where bravado and extreme profanity are expected and places where it is ridiculed. I'm still getting used to it... because I'm not naturally cocky or profane, and when I try to do it, it comes out all wrong.
Hopefully, I'll get to see some live music this weekend. Maybe meet some new people... who knows?
I've been studying this concept in philosophy that states every decision any human being makes, even if it appears altruistic or sacrificial, is made purely in self-interest. There are no unselfish acts. I can't avoid believing that, for some reason, and it's been bothering me all week.
Still getting shit for having a cock photo up. Hey, if somebody really wants to see my face, they can look at my profile and there's two pictures up there. Or the blog, for christ's sake, I have one on the first post. I just don't want _everybody_ seeing my face. You need to take some interest, you know.
I wrote the first part of an erotic story and put it up. It was lame. Again, I wrote it to score some points to check out profiles last night. I actually used the word "precum."
I shouldn't be so prudish, because I'm not. But there's a fine line sometimes between being sexually frank and just being a crass tool. See: my magazine question.
Also, I took down the detailed description of the sex dream I had with the punk girl I mentioned in the last post.
But I need to be careful, because I want to appear as authentic as possible. If I like to write descriptions of sex dreams that include phrases like "she whispered that she wanted me so turned on for so long that when I finally came, my cum would shoot out in long, thick ropes all over her breasts, hair, and face" then I should just do it. But am I that guy?
We all have fantasies, but sometimes it's best to let them play out in real life rather than describing every detail. Sometimes, the retelling of something ends up detracting from it's meaning. You know?
Take it easy and mahalo.
7/28/2005 11:45 pm
Ramble on as you see fit and don't sweat this so much. Keep up this kind of honesty and you'll do just fine and far better than most.|