One friend gone  

dandy6912000 60M/59F
2244 posts
7/27/2006 5:37 pm
One friend gone


This could very well be the fifth or even the twenty-fifth time I started this posting. Some were even almost finished ,and i just deleted them, why cuase this day I'm lost for words, or should say been lost for answers to why someone would take thier own life.
Damn hard to understand when I knew him for a long time. Evervytime it was a smile on his face, and a pleasing conversation , never a negative thought being given or recieved. Always polite to evervyone that he met, and seem to enjoy life. just more of good friend then I knew at the time, and now why???
The only thing i do know is

There is not enough whiskey in the bottle to find the answers

No Blog to read the answers, he didn't own a computer or wanted one.

No place I can ride to, that shows me where he may of been.

No paint on the canvas, to see what may have happened.

And for now, I find life here on Earth, is better then any fantasy we think of as heaven.

Cause, I have no pictures, or met anyone that has return from there.

Sorry this is just letting off anger from this. Sometimes we taste the bitterness of a lemon when we think we are eating strawberries. But knowing the differents makes the taste that much sweeter.

dandy6912000 60M/59F
3383 posts
7/28/2006 12:34 pm

Thankyou, my dear friend. thoughts are always with all our friends, and even the ones we are not aware of at this time.
Dandy


midniteryde0005 45F

8/3/2006 4:28 pm

OMG i am so sorry for your loss, loss hurts and is not fair, because you want the person right here with you, having all those good times you used to have.but no matter how much you wish, pleed, beg, it won't change.
i lost a girlfriend last year, she took a .22 to her mouth, but the thing is that she just couldent see how much damage she did to the people that were still here on this earth.

i also lost a 4 and 1/2 year old boy back in 98, and as a grieving mother, I WILL NEVER GET OVER THAT ONE,i will always be a grieving mother, always, didn't ask for it, but got dealt that hand that i didn't want to play, and now all i have is memories, but that's why god gave us memories, so we can remember all the beautiful/great/funny times we shared.

if you ever need someone to talk to i'm here, because as a seasoned vet, in this subject, you'll need to vent ok

i mean it too!

i'll be praying for you

MID/Becky


dandy6912000 60M/59F
3383 posts
8/3/2006 5:14 pm

    Quoting midniteryde0005:
    OMG i am so sorry for your loss, loss hurts and is not fair, because you want the person right here with you, having all those good times you used to have.but no matter how much you wish, pleed, beg, it won't change.
    i lost a girlfriend last year, she took a .22 to her mouth, but the thing is that she just couldent see how much damage she did to the people that were still here on this earth.

    i also lost a 4 and 1/2 year old boy back in 98, and as a grieving mother, I WILL NEVER GET OVER THAT ONE,i will always be a grieving mother, always, didn't ask for it, but got dealt that hand that i didn't want to play, and now all i have is memories, but that's why god gave us memories, so we can remember all the beautiful/great/funny times we shared.

    if you ever need someone to talk to i'm here, because as a seasoned vet, in this subject, you'll need to vent ok

    i mean it too!

    i'll be praying for you

    MID/Becky


Thankyou, so sorry for your lost as well. We are going to be ok, it was in a way , something that took place , but with him suffering from an mently illness he wasn't always with us at times, and found he hadn't slep in a very long time, claiming he alway had voices in his head. he was on meds for it but we found out they didn't work for him these last couple of months, never could sleep at all. So may he be at rest now. Thanks Dandy


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