March 22nd, 2006 wednesday  

cutie4umm 47F
28 posts
3/22/2006 3:54 pm

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5/16/2006 7:23 pm

March 22nd, 2006 wednesday

Have u ever had a day.... u felt really like something would go wrong? I do and this is one those's days.
Can't get focused on anything... I think i have spent soo much time chattin online, that i'm makin myself, not be able to do any real life...

Have u every lost someone that was the closest person, that knew everything about u, that would kill for u? I have. Have u every had a person in ur life that would give u their last dollar, get his ass kicked defendin u no matter what u did, some that you could never live without. I have.

If u have someone like that, make sure u tell them. ..... I had my brother , He had me/
and that is the way is was suppose to be.
FOREVER,,, but he decide to take his life and leave me here alone. and i will never be able to
fill that hole, I realize that. And it will never the same in life. A part of me is gone . because it's been 3 yrs 3 months. and i feel the same .. And i need him to 'fix' me, To help me to just b!!!
that's what's botherin me....2day...

brokentoaster 36M
2 posts
3/23/2006 5:05 am

that sucks i hope things do get better for you. and if nothing else maybe i can help you get your mind of things? hehe

cutie4umm replies on 3/23/2006 6:19 pm:

tk u ! all is well in life brokentoaster, so days u cant shake it most days u have 2.....

traeman 50M

4/11/2006 1:29 am

Hey Cutie,
Change is part of life, a part that most of us hate, but that won't stop it. The challenge is to rise each day and celebrate the day like it is your last. One could focus on the death, it's all around us, but so is life. It really comes down to a matter of perspective. I heard a quote in a movie once that made a lot of sense to me "get busy living or get busy dieing, the choice is yours" (Shaw-shank Redemption) That's where we can gain a sense of power over things like death, we can choose to focus on life. Your brother lives on in your heart and memories, treasure those, let them lift you up when the darkness comes, not tear you down. I'm sure your brother would have wanted that for you. - Just my thoughts- Trae

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