Something Missing?  

cuteNEway 41F
1774 posts
5/7/2006 7:19 am

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Something Missing?

Well here I am again feeling like something is missing from my life. Maybe its all in my head. I have two wonderful babies, family and friends that I can call when I need to vent or just talk random crap with. Sex well I get sex fairly regularly considering that I'm single and fat.

Money is an issue but I manage for the most part. I've been thinking about it and I realized that what's missing is self-confience.

My recent posts have had me thinking about my self image. When I look in the mirror I hate what I see. I see a short, fat, ugly troll. There isn't one day that I am happy with what I see.

I've gotten to the point that I don't even care what I'm wearing as long as it's clean. Because no matter what I wear, to me I still look like shit. I figure why should I bother?

So I have decided that it is now time to do something about it. I have to lose weight. The last time I was this big I was 8 months pregnant!

I have to do this because I am tire of not being comfortable in my own skin. I'm tired of feeling embrrassed to be around my own family. I'm tired of the rejection and I'm tired of the mocking and pitiful stares on the street. My ego hurts and the only way for me to finally be happy is by losing weight.

Problem is everytime I decide I HAVE to lose weight, I just eat more! I want to at least join a gym but I honestly cannot spare any Money...If anyone has advice beyond "eat more veggies" or "eat less carbs" please tell me!


NickRules999 39M
9464 posts
5/7/2006 8:48 am

I'm the last person to give any advice of that nature, as I'm looking to drop a few pounds, myself. My job might help me in that area. I think if I push a mower all summer, that'll do it. Plus, I hope to join a gym soon. I need to get in somewhat decent shape before I join the wrestling school.

Come into my realm! You aren't afraid...are you?


SlungSpeltDrugs 57M
82 posts
5/7/2006 3:26 pm

confession time. about 12yrs ago I had a situation that wwas very much the same. I weighed a little over 290lbs. Hell I had quit looking. I didn't care about anything anymore. I hated my life. I learned that the only person who change things was me.I changed my eating habits. Nomore eating and laying down to sleep.I went to counceling for my depression. I started to walk at night.later i took on a second job. I'm now 190lbs. Not perfect but happier. Now when I feel my jeans getting a little tight I watch what portions I eat and I leave the fast food places alone. I haven't eaten at a bk or mcd's for a long time. Do the things you can and get the help you need. quit punishing yourself by eating and just be content.


elysianpleasure 47M

5/7/2006 5:27 pm

I have to loose a few too...

It is true... hard to do much until you are confident in yourself.

Good luck... give yourself a break... and praise yourself for the small victories along the way.


cuteNEway 41F

5/8/2006 5:46 pm

Thank you so much for your words! All of you!
Nick>>you are SO gonna kick ass in the ring!!
Thatsme>>little by little is the way to go then? I guess it is best that way...whenever I lost the weight fast it aalll came back with a vengeance...thank you
Elysian>>Small victories...I have a tendency to punish myself til I've completed my mission...but I will try to program myself. I guess that will help me to not fall back on bad habits1
Mzhuny>>OMG woman WHAT did you do to lose that weight? That is exactly what I want to lose!! And BTW you look great!!


rm_skullrider67 49M
1 post
5/9/2006 4:47 am

Wow got to luv who you are and that if you want to loss weight than be happy with your self first. Remember you kids they will always luv you no matter what.


free2chose2 66F

5/9/2006 9:17 am

CuteN-Put your meals on dessert/child size plates----walk more-love yourself

Don't worry, be Happy


AtomicArtist0 45M
6015 posts
5/9/2006 11:44 pm

I recently lost 15lbs and am still working on more. I'm the thinnest I've been in more than a decade. My secret: I walk more now. 1 mile will burn 100 calories. I do 3-5 almost daily. I'm also drinking slim fast for breakfast and lunch (with a sandwich) then eat whatever i want for dinner. It doesn't work at first. it makes you hungrier at first, but once in your system it really surpresses the hunger. Luckily, i actually like the taste of the crap. I wish I had a walking partner. I do it by myself. good luck in your weightloss. let me know if you need coaching.


MissAnnThrope 56F
11488 posts
5/12/2006 10:00 pm

The ONLY way I've been able to lose weight is through walking. It burns as many calories as jogging. 20 minutes a day to start is all you need.


cuteNEway 41F

5/17/2006 7:01 pm

thanks alamo! I'm hoping that they will sign a letter of medical necessity for me when I get insurance.


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