Baby Cakes  

curious6_9_79 37F
9 posts
11/11/2005 1:37 am

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Baby Cakes

I'm not a small girl. I'll just say that. I've never been a small girl, much to the dismay of my mother and grandfather. Lucky for me, my father and grandmother never made me feel bad. And lucky for me I found a man who loves me, even though I have a hard time loving myself.

Sometimes someone comes along that treats me special, despite my size, and I hang on to it. But it's not fair to people for me to do that. And it's not fair to myself for me to do that.

So, I'm watching this movie about this fat girl who finds this boy who likes her "just the way she is." But she's hanging on to him too much. And it wasn't fair to either of them.

If you're reading this, respond to this. Tell me what you do to break a funk. Tell me what you do to feel sexy or wanted or loved. Tell me if you ever feel as melancholy as I feel right now.

rm_81Squishy 35M/30F
4 posts
11/11/2005 5:54 am

hiya, I sort of had the opposite problem. Way to skinny. 180cm tall and only 60kg. Not that good for me. If i run out of sugar i have no energy. it took 5 years to go from 56-60kg. Most girls wouldn愒 even look at me. Found a couple who like me for what I was. First one worked well for 2 years, then she moved on to someone with nearly twice my body bulk. that sucked, second girl clung to me and tried to complement me as much as she could to raise my self esteem. Was really nice of her, but I hated being placed on a pedastal like that. Next girl I found worked the best, she just lets me be me, give some good compliments but not too often. mixture of freedom and clingeeness. I just have to try not to distance myself from her as I did with everyone else I knew...

hmm not sure if that made sense. I guess I just sort of know how you feel. I got used to everyone and i mean everone i扉e ever meat saying: you need to eat more. Put on some weight, your to skinny. Dammit I悲 out eat most of them anyday.


curious6_9_79 37F
6 posts
11/11/2005 8:53 am

No, it makes sense. Everyone has issues. I know I'm not the only one, self-indulgent as my post was. But at least you've found someone who cares for you and loves you just the way you are. Hang on to them, but not too hard. Just like you're doing. I'm learning the same thing with my husband.

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