My Blessing, My Curse  

curious082385 31F
4230 posts
11/7/2005 1:03 pm

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My Blessing, My Curse

Whenever I meet someone, I try to look beyond the front they put up and see the truth of who they are. I am continually told that this is a gift, that this is a good thing. But there is a flip side to it, as there is with everything. In any relationship, I leave myself too open, too vulnerable. In trying to return the favor and letting that person see the truth of me, I open myself too much. I can't seem to help it. This can be the start of an incredible that begins in absolute honesty. But time and time again, it frightens people or they don't recognize it for what it is. They see someone who is strong, who is confident...after all, why else would I say or do the things I do? They don't see the risk, the vulnerability that it takes to give them that. And so they turn from it.

There is a scared, lonely little girl hiding behind this mask, this front of confidence and sensuality. But no one takes the time to look beyond....

Rejection hurts...and yet, I continue to place my heart on the line, give my all, leave myself so open to them. Why?

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/7/2005 5:59 pm

Because if you hide behind a wall you end up burying yourself alive.

Tell that little girl there is always someone here to snuggle her and console her when someone hurts her.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

jim5131 55M
1296 posts
11/7/2005 6:46 pm

Karma said it...the blogs are an excellent way of opening up. There is a huge world in here and it's full of friends you haven't met yet.

...and it's soooo easy to read through people here...

634694u 46M

11/7/2005 8:45 pm

I'm looking, and very carefully at that. What you hide is what I seek.
Your willingness to open-up is increadibly sexy and a most pleasant change from the majority. Life is short,play hard!

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/8/2005 5:42 am

PK - grateful beyond words for all you have done and all you continue to do...your friendship is a blessing

Jim - yes, they are and slowly I'm letting more and more of myself into this one

63 - yes you are and I'm more grateful than you know for that

HedonisticGuy69 46M
90 posts
11/19/2005 6:33 am

Because it is the way to live, to be able to take steps towards ones potential. Without this effort then you only exist in imagination, a world of your own without input or influence from others.
Perception is reality... if you can't open up and put yourself outside of your own sphere then you may as well live in a virtual world, one just of your making.
To chance rejection, disappointment, hurts... is to truly live.
You have plenty of time for that someone to find you, someone who will take the time and spend all the energy needed to understand you in all your dimensions.

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