curious082385 31F
4230 posts
11/21/2005 1:43 am

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If you are one of the ones I talk to on IM or on the phone....this post is for you.

As you know, these last few months have been hard ones to deal with...a lot going on and old wounds in need of healing. I thought that I was alone. I stood in crowded rooms and just wanted to scream at the emptiness and pain inside me. I stood in the sunshine and still felt cold and dark.
And then suddenly, there you all were. Within weeks, you all entered my life. "Maybe there is some light and hope," my heart wondered. But still I doubted. Even as I wanted to come closer to you all, I was afraid of the pain you could cause me.

But you were patient and you were steady. You never wavered when I showed my pain...but always listened with a quiet acceptance. Some of you know more than others, yes, but all of you know at least one thing that I would have been terrified to share with anyone else. No matter what I said, no matter what I shared...your response was always...."so what? I love you still. That changes nothing of how I feel."

Through your questions and conversations, I have found new depths of myself and have been able to share with you my joy of that exploration.

Friendships like these are treasures...rare, priceless and breathtakingly beautiful. My gratitude and joy at the relationships I have found with you runs deeper than two-dimensional words on a computer screen can express. You have been my comfort and my haven, my lights in the darkness. I could try to say thank you, try to put it into words. But I don't have to, for you know my heart.
And that is perhaps the greatest joy of all.

Efilnikufecin69 47M

11/21/2005 2:42 am

MzZ. I must tell you it is an honor to be your friend. The fact that you share your deepest fears, darkest secrets and your wishes and dreams with someone you have never seen in reality speaks for itsself. YOu too, have brought light into many a dark world, have become a beacon to guide us away from tragedy.

To you, my dear friend, I bow in honor.

Thank you always for your loving words and support.

Friends forever


jim5131 55M
1296 posts
11/21/2005 11:18 pm

....a big Thanks to the subject of her message. Thanks for being the friend to her. Thanks for helping. Thanks for understanding. Thanks for caring for her. She trusts you and....well, Thanks.

Take care, Curious

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/22/2005 12:34 am

*HUGS curious*

You know we love you, precious.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/22/2005 2:44 am

Efil - once again, I find myself humbled by your words. I share myself so truly with you because of the support and friendship I can feel. To have someone to laugh and cry with....forever thankful.
As for kind words and support...there is no one in the world who is more deserving of them then you and lianna.
So blessed that I got the chance to stand beside the two of you and count you as my friends.

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/22/2005 4:23 am

PK - yes I do...and it is so wonderful to be secure in that knowledge.

rm_gizbourne 53M

11/23/2005 12:27 am

another so called "poem"

that may relate:

"you run" by guy xxxxxxx
copyright 1998

you run
you run
and you run
you run to no place
someplace you know
everything far
soon becomes near
just look at the scars
you so endear
you run from the dark
you run from the light
you run from the middle
pretend it’s the end
pretending to start
nothingness retracting
emptiness expanding
yourself reprimanding
the other side
of one part

hey beautiful one



do not "try"

just "be"

and be kind to yourself


curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/24/2005 5:17 am

Thank you

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