Candlelight Ramblings  

curious082385 31F
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12/20/2005 3:23 am

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4/20/2006 1:12 am

Candlelight Ramblings

I grabbed my CD player, a mix CD of beautiful music, lit the candles in my bathroom and took my shower by candlelight. I ended up sitting on the floor of the shower, head leaned forwards, letting the steaming water beat against my back, relieving the tension of a hard day. As the heat, music and semi-darkness began to work their magic my mind began to wander from thought to thought with no predetermined destination.

I wonder about all choices made that led me to this place. All the millions of people and decisions that led to the birth of my parents, their meeting and falling in love, my birth and life. How different my life could have been if my great grandparents had stayed in Germany or Ireland. How strange it is to think of how shaped my life has been by the choices of ancestors I never knew. I am the newest link in a chain that stretches back hundreds of years and generations, the legacy of a man and woman whose names I'll never know.

My thoughts turn forwards to the children that I will someday have, my contribution to that chain, that legacy. Will they too sit and wonder at the funny ways that the world has of shaping their lives? Will they consider me a friend, role model, adviser, companion or enemy as they find their way though life? Will the story of how their father and I met be as inspiring to them as my parents story was to me?

And of course my thoughts now wander towards that man...
What will life with him be like? How will it feel to fall asleep in the arms of someone who I know will always be at my side? What choices and events will bring us together? Where will life take us? An endless horizon of possibilities stretched out at our feet...which one will we choose?

My back is now too hot, so I turn around and lean my back against the wall, letting the water splash down across my stomach. My knee is cramped, so I lift my leg and point my toes to the ceiling, feeling the sharp release of muscles stretching and relaxing. My attention is caught by the way the water beads on my skin and slides softly down my leg in tiny rivers. And by the way the candlelight flashes on each water drop as I move. Slightly drowsy from the heat and music, I study the arch of my foot and the curve of my leg and start to wonder at the power and simple beauty of being a woman. Of how different we are in so many ways from men. Our emotions, our thoughts, our perceptions...the whole way that we view ourselves, each other and the world. Is it simply different brain patterns and hormones or is it something deeper? The knowledge and power to create life perhaps?

As the water started to get cold, I grabbed the soap and washed off, my mind still musing as I dried off and dabbed lotion on my skin. I remembered the advice of a friend and cleared away a patch of steam from the mirror, leaned forwards, looked myself in the eye...and simply smiled.

dasher121 36M

12/20/2005 6:28 am

such wonderful and deep thoughts. to be part of a legacy such as that would truely be inspiring. interesting thoughts of how the actions, so small, of so many that you never knew lead you to where you are. a truely great path indeed.

The_Wraith_1969 47M

12/20/2005 7:48 am


12/20/2005 5:37 pm

Curious wrote,

The knowledge and power to create life perhaps?

I had been thinking similar thoughts recently and I think you may be on to something with this idea.

One of my own favorite quotes concerning mirrors is...

Meeting your own maker is as simple as glancing into a mirror.


PS. Ballet Parking, it's an idea who's time has come.


CelticKarma 43F
1350 posts
12/20/2005 5:48 pm

It's PK... Help! My main account has been hijacked!

(Confirmation number for this comment: 911. I kid you not.)

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
12/21/2005 1:00 am

Dasher - inspiring indeed to know that you are a part of something greater then yourself and that you have the power and chance to enhance and add to that legacy.

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
12/21/2005 1:03 am

Wraith - you had waaaaay too much time on your hands today, didn't you?

KC - "Meeting your own maker is as simple as glancing into a mirror."
I like it, thank you.

Celtic/PK - 911? creepy. I seem to keep getting 666 a lot recently. Hmmm...are the AdultFriendFinder gods trying to tell me something, do you think?

CelticKarma 43F
1350 posts
12/21/2005 9:35 am

I dunno... have you been naughty?

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
12/22/2005 12:10 am

CK - Oh, always!

onelittlesecret 33M
1579 posts
4/19/2006 2:11 pm

Will the story of how their father and I met be as inspiring to them as my parents story was to me?


seriously though, I so loved this post. beautiful

curious082385 replies on 4/20/2006 1:12 am:
*sad smile*
It was a beautiful night.

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