A beautiful morning...  

curious082385 31F
4230 posts
11/21/2005 10:54 am

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9/10/2006 9:02 am

A beautiful morning...

Spent the night talking to two wonderful friends online...chatting about everything from absolute randomness to crying in overwhelming emotion. As the sun rose and it came time for me to leave work, I called one of those friends (isn't it wonderful to have someone always be happy to hear your voice on the phone?) and continued our conversation as I drove through early morning fog banks tinged with the delicate colors of the sunrise.
I picked up my dog, Orion, and headed for one of my favorite loop trails, now on the phone with another close friend. Laughing softly at him, I started out down the trail at a fast walk, enjoying the conversation and the gentle warming of my muscles in the crisp coolness of the morning. Much to my annoyance though, my phone decided it was going to run out of batteries (sorry about that) and die. With the easy distraction of my friend gone and having covered a little over a half a mile, I decided it was time to pick up the pace and get the running over with.
Now, I have a love/hate relationship with running. As I get ready to go out, I grumble and have to force myself to do it. But once I get going, after those first few steps, I love it. The rythmic slap of my shoes on the concrete, the soft panting as Orion keeps pace at my side, the out of breath but cheerful "good mornings" as you pass your fellow runners. The brief protest of my legs as I force them faster before I find my pace and the fluid warmth the spreads through me as muscles relax into the quick ebb and pull of the movement.
I finished my four miles and walked the last half mile back to the car, admiring the beauty around me...the river flowing by, the leaves spinning and twirling as they fell, the quick flash on sunlight on dew. A smile spead across my face as I thought of the day to day joys of life.
So now, warm after a hot shower and comfy in my pajama pants, I sit here reflecting on how simple and perfect the morning was. Just me, a few friends, my dog, the trail and the sun. And the easy peace of relaxing into all of it.

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
11/21/2005 1:38 pm

Really? Interesting. I spent the morning chain-smoking, watching Dr.Phil and yelling at my dogs to shut the hell up.


11/21/2005 2:15 pm

That transition from night to morning is often an austerely beautiful one. Musically exemplified in the hard to find song titled Night Meets Light by Steve Morse/The Dixie Dregs.

And the act of running and I are not so compatible. We did determinedly try to make friends a few times over but either I trained all wrong or I've really got some sort of genetic predisposition for shin splints.

But it's all good though because swimming and I are the best of friends. Although I still experience some on and off resistance to actually getting up to go do it.

Once I'm there it feels so good and sensual. Like a physical mantra and moving meditation. It gets the circulatory system going in such a way like nothing else. I even love the visuals.

The repetitive wave patterns of the turqoiuse blue, the approaching black '+' and the bubbly tornado whirl at the filp turn. The sunny splash sparkles.

And then the onset of that subtle but inexplicably good endorphin high which, if I'm lucky, can last for the rest of the day. It puts any drug you could take to shame but it doesn't cost anything but a trip to the pool.

I do recall the daze when swimming was pure torturous drudgery though. Back when I first ventured to join the high school swim team. Before I'd made it "over the hump" and before I had recast my body into what it had to have to really do the job both lungwise and musclewise. With the swim coach yelling at me to keep my eye on that giant poolside swim clock and to not cheat on my send off times.

I never miss the competition or the old style regimented workouts with that huge and silly send off clock and the sets of laps to complete within the prescribed time frames.

Even after I crossed that threshold where the swimming finally felt good and ceased to be torture the workouts and swim meets still seemed cold and militaristic.

But once that era ended and the game was all my call and I went for pure and steady long distance on my own terms and at my own pace.... that's when it became ecstatic.

I guess if I ever taught swimming I'd teach the advanced students how to maybe reach that goal instead of something like the Olympics.


PS. Now that I proofread this verbmonster I think the moral of this story might actually be "give me a boss and a set of rules to follow and I'm not a happy camper".


jim5131 55M
1296 posts
11/21/2005 10:00 pm

I like what your life has become, even though I didn't know much of it before. You have new friends (VeryCool,VeryCool), and a good dog, you love to do some things for yourself, you love to do things for others, you love the people you work with, you love to notice the natural beauty around you, and you love to share it with your friends.

Very nice. Sweet. Uncomplicated.

(I keep hearing wings...sounds like slow flapping in the wind..)

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/21/2005 11:46 pm

Lianna - *grinning* Life is good, huh?

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/21/2005 11:47 pm

KC - ouch to the shin splints, but glad that you can find that peace in the water. It's good to have something like that to return to, that makes you feel good no matter how bad the day has been.

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/22/2005 12:09 am

Jim - *soft smile* Yes, I'm starting to think that I like life pretty well too. Although it is far from uncomplicated. As for the wings...stronger everyday.


9/8/2006 6:47 pm

Dis be my intro debut to your blog way back when. (I think) Not quite a year ago but getting close now. Seems even longer ago though but it does truly conjure up something nostalgic. For me at least.



9/8/2006 8:06 pm

Oops make that my 3rd post ever in your blog. I jumped the gun.

Just using the new "look at your whole comment history" function to cheat and make posts out my ancient gigantic sized comments.

I requested for it to be expanded from 100 to all of em and they actually did it!

And I ain't even a payin' member!


curious082385 replies on 9/10/2006 9:02 am:
lol...having fun playing way back here?

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