whys life so confusin!  

cuddlehugs 39F
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9/26/2005 5:55 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

whys life so confusin!

as many of u know i`ve had the most turbulent six months of my life and had to make some life changing decisions some easy some not so easy!
finding my future and figuring what i need has been the hardest bit and still is!
AdultFriendFinder has played a major part in my decisions and the way i`m leading my life!
i`ve reached the point now i want to move on and be happy.
but how do u find happiness and figure what u want i dunno i`m confused and lost theres this big gaping hole and to be honest if i`m true i don`t know how to fill it ! i`ve done the partying i`ve done the b/f bit made gr8 new friends i`m content just couldn`t truly say i`m happy!
i thought about changing my lifestyle leaving internet behind infact i tried it but when ur a single mum the chats gr8
confused as to where my lifes going and what lies ahead 6 months ago i would have told u love doesn`t exist but now i might be wrong but i think maybe it does.
i guess maybe the hole i feel is where i should be loving some1 and feeling loved and if i`m honest maybe its what i want but who knows confusion rains again!

sorry guys know this blogs rubbish but maybe some1 can relate to what i`m saying hope so they can give me some advice!

jaz xoxox

rm_coyote36uk 48M

9/26/2005 8:39 am

well jas if i knew what the hole your looking for as in the person to fill it i would stand at your side hold you in my arms and tell you to go and be happy but when it comes down to it im as confused as you i dunno what im supposed to do in my life i dont no where im supposed to be or anything i have had happy times this year like you but as time wears on i seem as lost as you describe so for once coy doesnt have the answers just the sympathy knowing what your going through!lots of love coy!xxxx

rm_roughready28 50M

9/27/2005 5:29 am

Love is what u want it to be babes, only u can decide whether or not "it" fits the pattern u want. Standard Operating Pattern Chat-Coffee-Friends-See what happens....................

Life is what u make it, ur a cool, intelligent girl and it'll all come together when u want it to, keep the faith.


lil_miss_good 42F

9/28/2005 3:19 am

everyone wants to feel loved and wanted and respected and to be with that one person that meets all our hopes and dreams. but life aint like that. i know exactly where ur coming from in with regard to feeling lost, empty, numb. but u've been to hell and back in the last few months and it's made u stronger. u want to find that one thing to make ur life complete but ur not prepared to compromise anymore and settle for second best. and neither u should. ur worth a lot more than u probably realise and i'll be there for u no matter what. u'll find ur knight in shining armour one day, but until then just be the wonderful, loving, caring friend u have been. and remember, u are loved and wanted and needed by so many people, myself included and we are behind u 100%. wish i had the answer......

luv u loads xxxxxxxxx

Chele46H 49F

9/28/2005 8:59 am

Jaz, I don't know what to say - I feel like I'm walking a few steps behind you on the same pathway.

The wishes you have so kindly given me are returned in equal measure. I wish I could give/tell you something more practical but can't.

From what I have seen of you on the site and what I have seen in other people's posts to you - you are definately one of life's gems.

Be true to yourself and stay fundamentally the person you know you are - the rest will eventually fall into place.

The Jaz you are now is the only one I know - and I like her a lot.

Chele xx

cuddlehugs 39F

9/28/2005 4:05 pm

hey chele,missy,rough,coyote,

thanks all for ur kind and caring words they mean a lot but mostly thanks for being my friends and standing by me through the good times and the bad!

chele hunni all i can say is what we r learning now can only make us better stronger people!

jaz xxxx

cuddlehugs 39F

9/30/2005 7:37 pm

well guys u can all chill cuddles has worked out whats missing and what she wants lol!
i figured it i love my m8s on this site the chats gr8 but thats all don`t want all the other stuff anymore don`t wanna be a piece of meat and don`t wanna be meetin loads of people from the site!
so in short cuddlehugs has figured her gaping hole she wants to find love be in love and be loved yep sad i know yuck i here some of u say but sure if i don`t find it at least i`ve tried.

jaz xxxxxxx

daighi 49M
1449 posts
10/8/2005 4:55 am

Hey cuddles,sorry to hear that you've been having it rough lately.As you venture into the reralms of your newfound existance,just take one thought with you...

There IS such a thing as true love,it's just a matter of it finding you!

Often when we look,it does'nt show it's face,but it's out there...at least...i hope that it is??...lol

Keep your head up,& enjoy your life!


"Always remember...keep smiling!"



cuddlehugs 39F

10/11/2005 1:22 am

hey daighi!
thanks for ur post i hope ur right to hunni lol!
keep blogin u sound like a gr8 person!

jaz xxx

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