III retribution  

cuddleboy69 49M
70 posts
7/28/2005 10:02 am

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

III retribution

One of the things that holds me back from leting out my feelings is the fear of retribution. Is it not right to talk about certain things? Is it better to keep them inside so that others don't get hurt/offended? Do we just all have to pretend to play along?

Go along with the rules of society, we are comfortable with certain kinds of pain and uncomfortable with others. Comfortable with certain kinds of expressions of pain uncomfortable with others.

If I look at my favorite blog, it's a poetic expession of pain, so well expressed and often dealing with lost (or desired) love, which is such a good topic. It's great as poetry, it's really beautiful actually and even the harder truth of something that might be underneath makes it all the more attractive. I guess there somethings that are usually left unsaid.

But it's not just about making strangers more comfortable, unfortunately I can't completely insulate myself from my real life. Even if I wrote things somewhere, hid them away and didn't show anyone, they might be found (if only by a future generation of archeologists) and that could lead to retribution.

I could internalize it all, I guess that is what we are supposed to do, but FUCK THAT! Ok phew ... that felt good ... even if is was just a small small outburst . Anyway ... I think it's better to try to share, even if I'm afraid.

rm_EE407 41F
3903 posts
8/3/2005 1:37 pm

Fear of retribution is nasty... i know...

Become a member to create a blog