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rm_cru1972 44M
3520 posts
7/8/2006 9:29 am

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Well I am on here every night trying to come up with the words for a post that lets you know what I am feeling, and they don't come. I try all night to come up with them too, but to no avail.

Well a good person and a friend made a post that desribes the situation, so I want to direct you there. I just don't know how else to do it. Thanks for your patience and support through the time I have been here, every comment i recieve is greatly appreciated. SEX..LIFE..MORE SEX..MORE LIFE..BUT WAIT SEX IS LIFE..LIFE IS SEX


sweetSinn2690
2943 posts
7/8/2006 11:30 am

Damn her!!!!!...I knew something was bothering you...I knew she was holding him like a pawn over you, but I thought you were at least getting to see him. This just pisses me off royally!!! She has no idea how she is neglecting him by not letting him form the bond he needs with a loving Father! That is child abuse/neglect in my opinion!
You know...my daughter's Father is a total piece of SHIT...no responsibility, used me, left us and abandon her at the age of 1...
he never looked back, made no attempt to send BD cards...letters...nothing. Right now he's in jail. But if he knocked on my door right now...despise all my ill feelings of hatred I have for him...I would let him see her. Not for me...not for him....BUT FOR HER! And that's how it should be. I am sorry she is such a selfish bitch cru...and mark my words, this WILL bite her in the ass one day...he will know the truth and when it's all said and done he will resent her. Keep that journal...show him day by day how you loved him and thought of him. Hang in there sweetie. Kisses!

xoxo
sweetSinn


Oh WHATEVER BITCHES!


smoothnjuicy4u 50F

7/8/2006 12:54 pm

The stupid selfish things people will do to kids, Im sorry you and your kid have to got thru this stuff.


angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
7/8/2006 1:36 pm

It is criminal that she is making a pawn out of an innocent child. A child who deserves to know and love his father from the very beginning. She is obviously massively immature not to understand that she is taking away a God-given right this child has. And she is making you miserable over the whole thing.....and that is her point. I do hope that you are going to fight her on this one....and I know you are. I know you are just feeling miserable...and if you need to talk....let me know.


rm_yukonpaul 51M
1120 posts
7/8/2006 1:50 pm

I will never know what you are feeling, but I do know how debilitating depression can be. Hang in there.


rm_DarknStar 54F
2823 posts
7/8/2006 3:30 pm

I think its a summer thing....or the HEAT! melting brain cells!


Serenely_Yours 116
9198 posts
7/9/2006 12:52 am

Its OK that you cant come out with stuff to blog. How much do you expect to be? Cheer up.


٭ ˚ °◦○☻ Serenely Yours ☺○◦° ˚ ٭


SacredStarDance

7/9/2006 2:04 am

Cru my friend.. see i told you you had the support here..many are with you on this one.. let us lift you up and give you the strength you need and deserve..
wrapping my long arms around you and giving you a big huggs

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat


SacredStarDance

7/9/2006 2:05 am

p.s continue to read my blog.. you got more people commenting

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat


catseyes23 61F

7/9/2006 2:07 am

Most of us go through all what you are feeling right now, Cru. Hang in there.


LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
7/9/2006 10:50 pm

    Quoting catseyes23:
    Most of us go through all what you are feeling right now, Cru. Hang in there.
I was going to say something similar to Cats...she got it right. When the time is right and its clear in your head...then you'll have the choice to share or not...can't force it.


DAISYDUKE1004 50F
534 posts
7/10/2006 10:21 am

Ahhh just your picture on your profile is enough for me...nice one..
Take care....licks and kisses your way...Take Care ~Daisy~


libgemOH 56M/52F

7/11/2006 7:20 am

Patience sweetie.... We've talked about this too and I know it hurts. it'll happen, I promise. *BIG HUGS* -B


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:20 pm

    Quoting rm_yummmy669:
    hang in there...and if you ever want to chat..I am around...

    see my comment on above post..

    Hugs...hugs...more hugs...I am a good hugger... still more hugs...



    yummmy
thanks yummy, the hugs are seeming to help a little, and Haven't found you,


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:21 pm

    Quoting playrigal:
    hey we all have those times in our lives...hugs to you...btw..when you finish cooking dinners for the week, wanna cook for me?
I seem to be having a bad one lately thanks for the hugs, and What would you like me to cook?


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:24 pm

    Quoting sweetSinn2690:
    Damn her!!!!!...I knew something was bothering you...I knew she was holding him like a pawn over you, but I thought you were at least getting to see him. This just pisses me off royally!!! She has no idea how she is neglecting him by not letting him form the bond he needs with a loving Father! That is child abuse/neglect in my opinion!
    You know...my daughter's Father is a total piece of SHIT...no responsibility, used me, left us and abandon her at the age of 1...
    he never looked back, made no attempt to send BD cards...letters...nothing. Right now he's in jail. But if he knocked on my door right now...despise all my ill feelings of hatred I have for him...I would let him see her. Not for me...not for him....BUT FOR HER! And that's how it should be. I am sorry she is such a selfish bitch cru...and mark my words, this WILL bite her in the ass one day...he will know the truth and when it's all said and done he will resent her. Keep that journal...show him day by day how you loved him and thought of him. Hang in there sweetie. Kisses!

    xoxo
    sweetSinn
Now it's even worse!!!!! She told me to pick up formula and drop it off. Well she wasn't home so I put itin the door and, the cops just left telling me not to do that again


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:48 pm

Thanks girl for the hugs too


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:50 pm

    Quoting smoothnjuicy4u:
    The stupid selfish things people will do to kids, Im sorry you and your kid have to got thru this stuff.
There are people like her out there that should just be looked up for a loooonnnnggggg time


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:53 pm

    Quoting angelofmercy5:
    It is criminal that she is making a pawn out of an innocent child. A child who deserves to know and love his father from the very beginning. She is obviously massively immature not to understand that she is taking away a God-given right this child has. And she is making you miserable over the whole thing.....and that is her point. I do hope that you are going to fight her on this one....and I know you are. I know you are just feeling miserable...and if you need to talk....let me know.
I wish I could get her on some sort of child abuse for what she is doing, but... I am doing things that I can and when I DO get me day in court, things should go my way. And I could always talk


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 5:56 pm

    Quoting rm_yukonpaul:
    I will never know what you are feeling, but I do know how debilitating depression can be. Hang in there.
Thanks Paul, I do know deppression intamately too but I don't feel depressed as much as disgusted, and exteremly PISSED OFF


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:00 pm

    Quoting rm_DarknStar:
    I think its a summer thing....or the HEAT! melting brain cells!
That could be true. but on the other hand she is like this almost all the time thanks for the visit


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:04 pm

    Quoting rm_Dysgyzed:
    This new picture makes me want to reach out and pinch your nipple! (Hope that makes you smile, but Really wish I *COULD* pinch your nipple...okay, maybe lick and then pinch? Yes, and then sit on your lap and rock figure 8s into your goodies!)

    We're here for your Babe. You ARE my hero (your duty from your perspective is my Gift), and Know that if you need me, I'm only a whisper away. Though I've taken your "Brother" destination away because I want to commit perversions with your body...and Mind, please do know that we both have Strong Shoulders, and I'm Here for you!)

    And still wishing I were THERE with you so I could pinch your nipples!

    *Smooches, DearCruChris)
Tell you what you can lick the pierced one, and pinch the other one

How bout when you sit on my lap we talk about the first thing that *comes* up?

whisperingThank you


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:05 pm

    Quoting rm_Dysgyzed:
    P.S. That picture? Even though the character is in a corner...the Light is Shining. Maybe not Brightly enough...but the Wonderful Possibilities are THERE.

    My Heart!
    Angelique
Yes it does give a *Glimmer* of hope

Did you know you have Angel in your name?


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:09 pm

    Quoting Serenely_Yours:
    Its OK that you cant come out with stuff to blog. How much do you expect to be? Cheer up.
Thanks Ann for the kind words and the visit. And I am trying so hard


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:11 pm

    Quoting rm_mzhunyhole:
    Hey..we are here..ya do what ya gotta do..how's the baby?Hang tuff..big guy{=}.
I kow you guys are here but I am much better at giving then recieving.

I'm not sure how mini-me is doing, but I am hoping very well


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:14 pm

    Quoting SacredStarDance:
    Cru my friend.. see i told you you had the support here..many are with you on this one.. let us lift you up and give you the strength you need and deserve..
    wrapping my long arms around you and giving you a big huggs
I do see this, but I don't really know how to ask for the help. And Thank you for the hugs.


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:15 pm

    Quoting SacredStarDance:
    p.s continue to read my blog.. you got more people commenting
Okay I'll be back soon


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:17 pm

    Quoting catseyes23:
    Most of us go through all what you are feeling right now, Cru. Hang in there.
I know I'm not alone in the way I feel but, what is the worst is since I have been here I have learned to feel, and I don;t like hurting this way


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:19 pm

    Quoting playrigal:
    I know depression too, and can't imagine not seeing my boys, even as old as they are. Chin up hun..and fight for your rights. I wish there was something I could do. Sending another hug.
I have dealt with it long enough, I am trying to fight. The hugs are enough thank you


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:20 pm

    Quoting amberabercrombie:
    Want to do whatever you want with me for a day..? Want a slave..All you have to do is jump on the bandwagon and let me know you voted for me! Tsk the title of this should have been wronged!..Im counting on you !..Hey give me some credit here I have a long night of spamming blogs ahead of me !
This was fun thank you


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:22 pm

    Quoting LustyTaurus:
    I was going to say something similar to Cats...she got it right. When the time is right and its clear in your head...then you'll have the choice to share or not...can't force it.
Thanks LT I'm trying, and your words are true


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:25 pm

    Quoting DAISYDUKE1004:
    Ahhh just your picture on your profile is enough for me...nice one..
    Take care....licks and kisses your way...Take Care ~Daisy~
Thanks Daisy. Glad to see you're around again


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:30 pm

    Quoting rm_flyaway1012:
    great big giant sized hugs for ya.
    So sorry you suffer through that.
    xxxoooxxx
Thanks Fly. The hugs are grest right now


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/12/2006 6:33 pm

    Quoting libgemOH:
    Patience sweetie.... We've talked about this too and I know it hurts. it'll happen, I promise. *BIG HUGS* -B
And thank you for that B. You are a true friend indeed. I am so glad I have met all of you wonderful people


SacredStarDance

7/12/2006 8:32 pm

Hang in there cru.. Its good to feel again.. and with that comes pain.. and yes no pain no gain my friend..you will sort things out in your own time..and with time comes wisdom and strength.. and in this situation takes rational thinking.. and you do have rational friends here..
No doubt this will be one of the tuffest issues in your life.. you will make it.. you have to believe this..

now.. Buy some deep red lip stick and write on a mirror.. "dont give up"

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat


SacredStarDance

7/12/2006 8:38 pm

the vision.. cru ..this big man at a make up counter buying red lipstick.. hmmmmmm a kodak moment for sure .. a pic for sure to give to your son as he grows older..titled " the steps I took for you "

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat


sweetSinn2690
2943 posts
7/14/2006 1:02 am

(((((((((hugs)))))))))


Oh WHATEVER BITCHES!


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/15/2006 2:42 am

    Quoting SacredStarDance:
    Hang in there cru.. Its good to feel again.. and with that comes pain.. and yes no pain no gain my friend..you will sort things out in your own time..and with time comes wisdom and strength.. and in this situation takes rational thinking.. and you do have rational friends here..
    No doubt this will be one of the tuffest issues in your life.. you will make it.. you have to believe this..

    now.. Buy some deep red lip stick and write on a mirror.. "dont give up"
Thanks, For everything Muff, And as far as the lipstick till I get somewhere I have it written with a marker LOL


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/15/2006 2:45 am

    Quoting SacredStarDance:
    the vision.. cru ..this big man at a make up counter buying red lipstick.. hmmmmmm a kodak moment for sure .. a pic for sure to give to your son as he grows older..titled " the steps I took for you "
That would be a truly GREAT moment to *capture*I will have to think about that, Done I'll see if I can't get my friend to snap a pic of it. You are not only a GOOD friend with GOOD ideas, but you have a GREAT sense of humor to


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/15/2006 2:47 am

Thank you sweet(y)


TheRealThing655 48F
9558 posts
7/15/2006 9:11 am

I am really sorry to hear all you are going through Cru. I just can't even fathom why a mother would keep her child away from a father who wants to be involved in his son's life. It is just completely fucked up.
I am going through a divorce now..I hope in the future my ex will not move far away just for my children's sake. I feel even though our marriage didn't work that we both love our children and any time he wants to spend with them is a good thing.
I really hope with you that "what goes around comes around" and you will be reunited with your son and be able to have a relationship with him.


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/15/2006 5:03 pm

    Quoting TheRealThing655:
    I am really sorry to hear all you are going through Cru. I just can't even fathom why a mother would keep her child away from a father who wants to be involved in his son's life. It is just completely fucked up.
    I am going through a divorce now..I hope in the future my ex will not move far away just for my children's sake. I feel even though our marriage didn't work that we both love our children and any time he wants to spend with them is a good thing.
    I really hope with you that "what goes around comes around" and you will be reunited with your son and be able to have a relationship with him.
Thank you,Well I'll tell you this she thinks she is only hurting ME. And she knows I want to be a part of his life. I hpe things really work out for you as well and I do hope for the childrens sake that your ex does not move to far away. I was brought up in the situation where my father lived in Wi and mother lived in Tx, or Va. It was OK I would live with one for a while then move to live with other.


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/18/2006 7:27 pm

    Quoting rm_Iwillwait4u2:
    Cru...just wondering here, are you paying child support? If so, you have rights to see your child.....go and talk to social services..you may have to go to court to see a mediator..not sure if that is spelled right or not..
    hugs..it does get better!
No not yet actually. So I know she has no LEGAL right to let me see him YET. But There is the fact that as a DECENT mother she should let me be a part of his life. Once I do get to court then she HAS to do what they say


rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
7/18/2006 7:31 pm

    Quoting rm_Iwillwait4u2:
    oh and another thing..if she calls and WANTS something for the baby..LOG it in a journal.......keep track of everything!!! no matter what it is~~~ calls, if you give her extra money etc..it will all help you in the end! receipts also~
Ya know I did just come up with an idea after the police thing that I will make her sign something everytime She gets somethin from me LOL I know what I am doing sounds somewhat childish, but I need to do what I can cause her mother WILL afford a better lawyer that I can


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