a lab rat or superhero?  

complexlysimple 34M
894 posts
6/5/2006 2:02 am

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a lab rat or superhero?

I'm not sure that there is a difference, between the two... both end up serving humanity in there own way, while neither is ever really part of humanity...

And that's pretty much what I feel like either a lab rat or super hero ...either people watch me and learn knew things while not interacting or they come to me expecting me to solve their problems and go away...

Then those that do interact with me often setup barriers that I'm not to cross, keeping me away....

And at this point I'm tired, unsure and pretty much lost .... do I continue to be this superhero/lab rat or do I just let myself drift away into nothing... I try to find a new path but I don't know how I've been what I am so long I really don't know anything else...

But like in the stories people tell of superheros ..rarely do they get to be with the person they want to be with ...whether the story is real or not it seems that there is this need for a individual that is greater on there own than they are working with someone....

Sports legends, historical figures ... one person is raised up to an almost untouchable status gaining most if not all the credit, when they where more likely to have been just a small part ... a quarterback is nothing without the rest of the team, a general is nothing without troops, a leader is nothing without those who follow ... a god is nothing without believers...

...and even then each one may very well require something above and beyond them and/or an equal to confide in.....

ThaRealLiv 43M

6/5/2006 3:33 am

I totally relate to this post, man! Ya get tired sometimes, because you're efforts DO seem to go unnoticed. That's why ya HAFTA kida put yur work first. Of course it is all useless, if it doesn't reach anybody, but ya gotta stay true to what you are doing, and understand that things take time. Most people are on here to interact with someone right away, so if they don't immediatley get that from you, they will likely move on to someone else.
I just go about my work, and I know if I keep going eventually others will follow suit. I meet people along tha way, although I get pretty busy to do much interacting. Still, ya always seem ta meet up down tha road somewhere. For me, sex won't be as good as I want it to be until tha world is more secure. I just keep that focus, and hope for tha best down tha road. If it never happens, at least I gave it my best shot, and there may be something to learn from what I leave behind!

complexlysimple replies on 6/5/2006 3:48 pm:
the wanting interaction in return is something I've definitely started to notice ...can't say that I disagree with it either though...

absolutelynormal 56F
6563 posts
6/5/2006 6:44 am

If you aren't the way you want to be than only you can change yourself or life will teach lessons that make it impossible to stay the way you are. You describe yourself as a superhero, heroes need someone to save and I would imagine that you unknowingly to yourself, seek these people out so that you can be what you "are."

Then you say you are a lab rat, I am assuming that you mean you are just going through the maze of life, sometimes following the path until it deadends and you have to back up and try again. That IS life. Life is a learning experience, you crawl before you can walk, walk before you can run and my friend, you are just starting out.

All I can tell you to do is BLOGON! It helps with the frustrations of day to day life although if I blogged every single day about ALL of my frustrations people would soon tire of reading my blog. Continue to write about whatever YOU want to, it's your party. Mac

complexlysimple replies on 6/5/2006 3:44 pm:
I hadn't quite thought of particular meaning of lab rat ... usually it's more of "Hmmm, you're interesting what can I learn from you before I toss you aside"

As for being a hero.. I've started to realize that about myself ...which I don't particularly mind since I think it's part of being a friend - kind of if everyone else is running away, a friend is the one that is coming to help.

ArtisticTwist75 41F
2505 posts
6/5/2006 4:24 pm

We each make choices to serve society and our communities. Sometimes those choices take us past acceptable boundaries and we have to step back and reevaluate them. It sounds like you are doing this. Good luck in your search. And by the by, in my opinion stepping back does not equate to fading into nothing. I look at it instead, like shoring myself up for the times I do give. I'm sure you will find your path.


complexlysimple replies on 6/5/2006 4:45 pm:
thank you for your words of encouragement ... for me reevaluation is always an ongoing process though I've had to bring myself back from being nothing over the course of the last year....

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