Used and Abused  

complexlysimple 34M
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5/12/2006 9:12 pm

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12/16/2006 7:58 pm

Used and Abused


Well I was just catching up on some blogs and there seems to be a trend of talking about childhood abuse ....

It makes me wonder if anyone here actually has actually had a fairly normal childhood ... I'm pretty sure I haven't ...then again I don't really know what "normal" is, because for me "normal" seems to be something that most people find fairly extreme.

Although the result (which would be me) as it stands is that I've got a gift/curse (not much of a difference when you stop to think about it) for changing how I look at things - opposing views become the same, reality becomes unreal, fiction to reality.

And now thoughts are rushing to my head faster than than most would follow ...that's not to insult anyone. It's just like a listening to multiple conversations at once, one layer over another over another....perhaps more like a symphony than a conversation.... and while I can (and have) managed to 2 lines of thought at once there are many more coming right now... so things may sound erratic and out of place/disjointed....

I've actually had a conversation like this before with my roommate in college... he said he'd never had anything similar happen to him ...and so I wonder has anyone here?

Or is this just a result of what my life has been, forced to reconcile opposing views.... friends say I'm a genius, others may agree, and yet my family ...or more accurately my father refers to me as an idiot ... I see both sides and say it's all accurate and all false....

I think I'm going to bed before this gets worse, or before I start talking about math/physics and engineering with quantum mechanics and blackholes -all things that occupy my mind - fun things even though none of it's really real ...they're just games approximating reality..... handy to make machines and other trinkets though.....

BaronessK 52F

6/10/2006 2:49 am

Ditto. {Need more emoticon choices; no 'ditto' one, for example.}


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