A Saying  

complexlysimple 34M
894 posts
7/10/2006 5:05 pm

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7/12/2006 5:25 pm

A Saying

On my desk/table right under my computer monitor I have a little board that I got from one of my great aunts (I think that's the right term... otherwise it's my grandmother's sister) - also the person my mother says I'm most like ...definitely a compliment.

Anyway this board has a saying on it, it goes like this:

"It's not the Big things in life that get you down ~ but the litle things that add up each day."

Right now that's about how I'm feeling ...nothing big has gone wrong just lots of little things ... car not starting, because I forgot to turn the headlights off last night, forgetting to do a few small things at work ...one being request off a few days before Labor Day weekend so I have time to go to Maine for a wedding -I also realized I need to ask where exactly in Maine this wedding is ...

Overall nothing big just a lot of little things ...and it really doesn't help that with the way my life has been I can generally say that 'perfect' isn't how you finish ...it's a starting point to improve on.

So when I mess up on all the little things it can hit hard...

Then when I see that people have succeeded with much less than I have ...it just baffles me ...and scares me at what I might just be able to accomplish...

And in response to a prior question "is my cock really too big?" ... I really don't know, it seems kind of small to me -in my hands anyway- but the pornos I've seen haven't really impressed me with size -then again I've check and found that most of the women in porn are only 5'3" ...which could almost make a toothpick look huge ... and back in high school my football teammates had at times bragged about the size of my dick ...outside the locker room ... in classes (always thought they full of it and just making things up ...but now I really don't know whether they were or not. I've never had a woman say anything one way or another ...granted I've also never had one actually play with me, so ... I really don't know

... or care ..because odds are some would say it's too big and others too small. ....

I don't know why I'm still typing

it's not that I'm embarrassed about the topic it's just that I'm not in a really good mood .. I'm not sure I could really find the will power to give a hug back if someone was to hug me right now ... I haven't made supper yet... I haven't even taken my boots off yet .. but I can't stop typing for some absurd reason ... I know I have more to give - i just can't find a way to get to it right now ... all my life I've been trying to give and never really asking anything in return ...why would I? you're not really giving it if I have to ask and poke and prod to get it...

I can't change anyones mind unless they let me .. I realize when it comes down to it I am completely and utterly powerless ...and even if someone does let me influence them I don't know what I need to do to get any kind of reaction I really want....

So I guess in the end all I'll ever be is a friend - just a friend ...never a boyfriend, husband or lover just a friend .... that's all just a friend ...

and i'm sorry if I've ever pushed for more...

Goodnight - for now I'll be back another night.

digdug41 49M

7/10/2006 5:47 pm

well dont let the shit getcha down just sounds like low awareness at the moment get on top of your game I know its not that deep coz God knows I've had low awareness and had to pay for it, it happens now yanno whattya gonna do about it

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cookiequeen1000 53F

7/10/2006 5:47 pm

You need fuel. Go eat something, kick off your shoes and enjoy your pity party. Wallow in it til your fingers get all prune-y. Then go make a list of the stuff you need to get done, and go to sleep and tomorrow will be all better. If that doesn't work then, Hell, eat two (2) chocolate bars and call me in the morning.

There are only two things you have absolute power and control over...everything you say, and everything you do. You'll be more than a friend when its your time to do so. Enjoy what blessings you have and let the rest go. Life is what happens while you're making other plans.

absolutelynormal 56F
6563 posts
7/12/2006 11:21 am

It's always something. Not really enjoying my life at the moment but I am grateful for everything and everyone (including you) that's in it

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