Been a few days  

company_od 43M
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5/21/2006 5:17 pm

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5/26/2006 9:29 pm

Been a few days


You know when I had the thought to do the blog thing, my first thought were, "Hye all those random things I think about can finally have a home where they can get exposure" Great concept, right? Well for me things always spin out in my head. In order to get them here I have to remember where I started, and a number of times I have left without posting since I couldn't remember what I wanted to post. Sort of like now, but I have actually remembered while I was thinking through again.
I'll be going back to college in about two weeks to work on getting a Bachelors and it will be the big college setting. I realized that I'm not concerned or nervous about it at all. Somehow my shyness isn't planning to manifest itself there. Most of the times in work, or school, or other settings I don't have problems. I don't have problems with it so much in smaller social settings. Larger groups have always been my bane, sad as it is say. I don't know if I quiet down to hear evertyhing going on around me or if I just become more aware of some of the insecurity I harbor to myself. Don't get me wrong I like myself just as much as I loathe myself so it works out well, I can cheer for my accomplishments and gripe at my shortcomings. I don't completely lock up in these settings, I can socialize and everything, I guess I don't mingle well. I guess some part may also be that I'm flirt impaired. There have been a few times when at work or shopping or something someone would ask why I didn't respond to some ladies flirts and to me they were just being nice or talkative or friendly, never saw anything more to it. Too bad there aren't classes for that in school. Not that I expect any women to come knocking my profile down trying to contact me but I would at least 'get it' from somewhere like AdultFriendFinder. I guess that doesn't prevent me from being labeled niave but... not much that I can do about it. I'm just me and I tend to be fairly unassuming, I'm not a supermodel and wouldn't want to be. I'm comfortable being myself and that's what I plan on being. Anyway enough blathering from me go have some fun elsewhere I'm sure there's life out there waiting to be lived.

BaronessK 52F

5/22/2006 11:23 pm

Being a female, can I still pretend for a moment that I'm male and come right out and say something crude like, "Wanna screw?"

Never mind, not serious {much?}. Just yanking ya chain. You can be a bit naive, especially when someone like me has made a lifetime of learning innuendo! *L* Ya still cute and cuddly, big guy.

So...ya wanna?


BaronessK 52F

5/24/2006 7:07 pm

Found this song when I was looking up some lyrics last night or today. Want a theme song? *L*

Everyday I sit beside you
on the bus to Madison Avenue
Work in the big gray store
with the revolving doors
You don't even know my name
I guess that I'm to blame
Don't know the right things to say
So I pretend away,
that I'm Rudolph Valentino
Pull up in my limousine
Oh, won't you come in out of the rain
Things will never be the same
And then just like Greta Garbo
you'll stare like there's no tomorrow
And you'll know what I'm thinking of
And right before your eyes I fall in love
with you

Today I'm done with games
Gonna ask you for your name
Say, I've been watching you
I even know what you do
Maybe today I'll tell you
Have found the nerve to sell you
On a guy like me
Who wishes that he
could be your Rudolph Valentino

Pull up in my limousine
Oh, won't you come in out of the rain
Things will never be the same
And then just like Greta Garbo
you'll stare like there's no tomorrow
And you'll know what I'm thinking of
And right before your eyes I fall in love
with you

And maybe right before my eyes
You'll say you love me too

- Ian Thomas


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