If you would only.......  

cinnerella 47F
59 posts
7/17/2005 8:12 pm

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If you would only.......

Show me who you are. Share your thoughts. Tell me of your desires.Let me in, keep me close. Our encounters could be that much more incredible.

243win 49M
1 post
7/20/2005 1:04 am

But sometimes I dont Know who I am. Am I a cowboy because I have horses and my muscels ache from throwing hay and fixing fence. Am I a professional because I wear a tie to work and I smile at the people even when I'd like to slap the dumb sons a bitches back to sence. Am I a biker because I ride a motercycle all summer long. am I a hunter because I live for the fall and the elks majic song. am I a fisherman because I am so good I have a tatoo of a trout on my leg. Or am I just a little boy who is dreaming of all these things and mybe I will wake up and live an entirely diffrent life. I'd like to show you who I am but I really dont know myself at all.
How could I ever share my thoughts, they bounce around so much I cant even tell where they may go next, I wish someone could share them but I am afraid.
Ah my desires, it feels silly to say but i just want to have that happy little family that I always thought my parents had until the day they came in to say that they were splitting up.
How could I let you in. I mean I want to but I work so hard at keeping myself out I cant even find the door.
Keep you close? but you will say I am smothering you just like she did and then you will leave and my hart will hurt and I will think well I fucked that up agin when will I ever get it right.

If you want those incredible encounters:
Learn who I am it will take a while and you may get mad when I behave badly but I only did that because you scared me I wondered could she really love me and I freaked out a little.
Whach me think It's not really that hard I'm just a guy your smart enough to figure me out.
I will proabably try to hide my desires from you because I will feel vunrable if you know just what could hurt me the most.
You can come in you just have to help me trust you and help me find the door.
Stay close dont leave when I say something hurtful to you I was just scared I really didnt mean it, If youve made it this far I love you and I dont know what to do next maybe I really am just a little boy dreaming, maybe I am an old man regretting, maybe I could be the man of your dreams and now I need you to help me, to show me, to hold, me to have confidence in me when I dont have any in myself, but mostly just to love me back.

I hope you dont take this anser personal I just read the question and answered it as if a woman was asking my personaly only a little more honest than I ever could face to face, I just poured out my soul for a little while and it felt good.

cinnerella 47F

7/20/2005 8:53 am

Thanks for posting 243win, its always ncie to see things from a mans perspective. Nothing taken personally

lickyourpassion 44M
174 posts
7/26/2005 3:29 am

Don't have the same trouble. Know who I am. I wear many hats, but I am always me.

I am cool when I am at my best, boring when I am at my worst, funny when you need to laugh and wrapped up in the continued search for that moment. I love making memories, they are my most prized possession. I am open to new things and closed to things that will make me bleed Damn, I guess I am something like a sensitive 90s guy, but it isn't the 90s. I like the sound of the beach crashing into the beach, it reminds me of love. I like the sunset in Texas, it reminds me of passion. I am a hopeless romantic that believes in no-strings relationships. I think everyone is a little confused and think we only doubt ourselves because we 4get that every1 else has the same issues. Let it go, relax a bit. HMB anytime and/or visit my blog for more of me, if U R N2 that Take care of you.

The Passionate One

lickyourpassion 44M
174 posts
7/26/2005 3:29 am

lickyourpassion 44M
174 posts
7/26/2005 3:30 am

Just adding another comment 4 fun.

rm_dream_lovin 56M
4 posts
2/9/2006 8:02 am

Hey cinnerella!
Very good writing! I like your ideas and your very detailed! As I recall seeing your pic you are a very pretty woman with a great body!!

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