Mixed emotions - where's the fun?  

cindi1977 40F
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8/20/2006 1:54 pm

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8/21/2006 2:36 pm

Mixed emotions - where's the fun?

This has been a weird weekend. It's rained a lot so I have spent more time at home than usual. So I've had more time to read and more time online.

Do you sometimes find yourself drawn to a book, for no particular reason. Yesterday, having skimmed through the newspapers, I wanted to read something more challenging. I went to my bookshelves and landed on "The Te of Piglet." I bought it about 10 years ago, when I started working in usury, seeking some answers.

It was quite chastening - I fear I have turned into an Eeyor, negative, critical and pessimistic. If I review my posts on here, too many have been critical and complaining.

I'm deep in thought, deciding what to do next. I may stop blogging altogether (I don't think the word will be any the poorer) or I might return in a more positive, upbeat incarnation. Time will tell.

Spending more time online this weekend, I have had a fascinating experience. I've noticed how much time some of my "friends" spend online and am noticing more how the delayed reply, the bland riposte, is indicative of multiple conversations.

There's a witty, no holds barred commentary under way, influenced by this weekend's experience, on life in cyberworld, but that's for later.

Suffice to say, the most used word here - "fun" is probably the one commodity in shortest supply.

ChrisDL 47M

8/20/2006 2:58 pm

Cindi - if you think your blog is bad, read mine! (Actually don't - because it is all the things that you think that yours is)

I'm interested in the book though, I've seen it a couple of times - do you recommend it?

cindi1977 40F

8/20/2006 4:21 pm

I do recommend it, the author is Benjamin Hoff. It's best if you read "The Tao of Pooh" first though. Just that the Eeyor chapter really resonated for me.

Actually I don't think my blog's bad - it's the way it is, however if was to ask, what do these commentaries say, I'd conclud that it's all towards the negative. Tomorrow I will be positive. Repeat, tomorrow I will be positive...

ColB74 42M

8/21/2006 11:10 am

Your all work and very little play philosophy appears to be taking it's toll.

I'm sure that there are more 'fun' things happening that you could write about it's just you seem to feel strongest about the negative occurrences.

I for one enjoy reading your blog as is clearly evident by my numerous comments. I come back repeatedly if for no other reason than to improve my vocabulary

cindi1977 40F

8/21/2006 2:36 pm

Thanks for the comments. Just to clarify, I wanted to say that the book that I was drawn to contained a fairly powerful message that made me stop and think.

I was talking about "fun" being in short supply purely on this site. Whilst the possiblities are sky high, there's a lot of frustration, disappointment, etc. along the way.

I have a lot of pleasure in my life, but somehow don't feel motivated to write about it here. Due, in part, to my dislike of arrogance and boastfulness plus a habit of analysing what could be better (usually things I can control) and how to achieve it.

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