Sometimes it seems as if life is against me. But not really!  

casper22005 59F
24 posts
4/15/2006 9:54 pm

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Sometimes it seems as if life is against me. But not really!


Here I am it is Saturday night and I am horny and alone. Not realling the hubby is here but would he really want to be interested? Not really and I am not interested in him.

In the last 3 weeks my life has changed so drastically it is really amazing. All due to one thing someone else's irresponsibilty. Yes that is what it really is.

Three weeks ago as I was trying to go home and I was trying to exit the parking lot where I work, a lady hit me as I was standing still. That was the being of a whole new life that I did not want. Yes I don't want to live in pain the rest of my life. It should not have been this way but it is.

The accident wasn't really as you would say major but because I was sitting still with my foot on the brake it has changed my life.

Yes I had some problems with my back and knee but it wasn't like it made think about it. Now because of the accident I now have to have a total knee replacement and pain management on my back or if that doesn't help back surgery.

I am a 6' tall woman I have always been tall now I can't even stand up straight. I hope that the people who make all the decisions one day have to go through the pain like I am. I had a good and positive life. I still have that, but everyday I feel like I am questioning my life.

Pain will do that to you. You don't realize that until it goes on for days on days and you never get any relief. How you used to sit in a chair 3 weeks ago and now you can't. That starts to wear on your mind. You try to think positive but it really naughs at your mind. Pain is something that really will change the way you act and respond to others.

It has made me like someone I don't like very much. Also to top it off you are horny as hell and can't seem to do anything about it. You don't feel sexy anylonger, or even beautiful. It makes you question everything.LOL So let me just say that if you think things are going good never let your gaurd down because God has ways of waking you up to pay attention.

I love sex, and I love life, but it is hard when you can't get it under control that you think differenty. I know that someday I will no longer hurt, but injuries like these are hard to live with and it will make you question yourself. It also makes you do things you shouldn't like tricking someone into thinking you are someone else. Or even playing someone along. None of these things are meant to be hurtful it is just a way to deal with everything else.

The ohter thing is that It will make you question about everything you do and say in your life.

Most of the body still works it is just certain parts are hurting so back that you think it will never get better. This is the time to wake yourself up and realize this isn't the end of your life but your begining.

rm_KirkVW44m 54M
688 posts
4/16/2006 4:39 am

There is nothing i find more sexual as well as sensual than a woman being totally honest to not only others but more importantly to herself. I find you not only all woman but damn sexy also. I wish you well and the pain away and can only say keep your chin up when you dont think you can some days. Happy Easter to you.

Kirk


angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
4/16/2006 6:09 am

Pain can change alot of things. I hope yours eases soon. Happy Easter!


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