carebearluv2 42F
1267 posts
12/15/2005 7:53 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


He's out on a date with someone else tonight.
A blind date with a girl he met over the internet. A girl I warned him about when he told me about her. A girl that started talking about having a relationship with him from the first email exchange. A girl I don't even know and already dislike. He didn't sound very excited to be there. He picked up his phone when I called him, didnt he? He never listens..

These thoughts scare me as they run through my head. New feelings have developed over the last several weeks and they are confusing the hell out of me. I am uncertain at this point whether I truly feel more than I thought for him or if I am just scared of losing him. Maybe I am seeing what has been in front of my face all along, I was just blind to it. Maybe it is just because he hasn't dated anyone since we met. Maybe it's just my competitive nature. Regardless of what it is, my heart sank when I talked to him.

These thoughts will remain my secret. I will lock them up deep inside myself and keep them there until I am certain he feels the same way, if he ever does. If he dates her seriously, I will smile at her, say all the right things and make nice. He would do the same for me. After all, he is my best friend.

ArgosPlumyKooky 45F
3902 posts
12/15/2005 8:14 pm

i understand where you're coming from. life is hard. you will be good.

tillerbabe 55F

12/15/2005 10:33 pm

You have so much class and this is so very hard. I've been where you are. Hold your beautiful head up high and shine! (hugging you!) {=}

norprin5 55M

12/16/2005 8:15 am


King Nor XVIII

carebearluv2 42F

12/16/2005 8:10 pm

Thanks for the support everyone! love ya!!!

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