Happy Birthday!  

carebearluv2 42F
1267 posts
12/8/2005 9:08 pm

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Happy Birthday!

My grandma died two years ago this February of ovarian cancer. Amazing how the time passes and you still have a whole in your heart. Tomorrow (December 9) is her birthday. She would have been 75 had she lived.

Anyone close to me knows what my grandma meant to me. She was a second mother, almost like a father in the absence of my real one. I spent my entire childhood under her roof and she was always the person I shared my secrets with. She was my biggest supporter, my fiercest defender and my role model. She taught me to love, laugh and helped mold me in the person I am today. She sacrified so much and asked for so little in return. I used to love her stories of growing up in San Francisco, her corny jokes and the delight she got from going to the dollar stores.

When the cancer started to take her, she lost her abilities to care for herself and my Mom became her full time caretaker. It was hard on my grandma to be in that position, but nonetheless, she continued to fight for her life. It wasn't herself she was fighting for, it was her family. But after a year, the fight came to an end and her body gave out. She died with grace, dignity,love and peace. She is my hero.

Since she died, I have taken comfort from the following song from my favorite group Train. I dedicate this song to my Grandma along with anyone who has lost someone important in their life..

"When I Look To The Sky" by Train

When it rains it pours and opens doors
And floods the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry
And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye

And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

And every word I didn't say that caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn't have before
And every sunset that we'll miss I'll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away

And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that I hope will never leave

Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plain overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won't pass me by

And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me
there you are to show me

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!! I MISS YOU!!


rm_titsandtires 51M/41F
3656 posts
12/9/2005 8:32 pm

a beautiful song for a beautiful lady.

*hugz to you cb*

tires


carebearluv2 42F

12/9/2005 8:53 pm

Thanks Tires and Jez, I can always count on you two! Now maybe one day in person, I will actually get to hug you!


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