Confusion about E..  

carebearluv2 41F
1267 posts
4/4/2006 9:15 pm

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4/15/2006 11:22 pm

Confusion about E..

A while ago, I wrote about my best male friend and the feelings I had started to develop. Lately, our friendship has been on the backburner, so I haven't thought about him much until recently.

He's been dating a girl for a few months now. She has a great job and genuinely seems like a good person. I haven't met her and he hasn't offered which kind of puzzles me. He and I have never so much as held hands, so I don't know why he feels the need to hide her from me. I will not put her down to him, even if I don't like her. I will only wish him the best and will leave her alone unless she hurts him.

He called me the other day for the first time in several weeks. I didn't get to talk to him, as the timing was bad, but I know she wasn't there. She is never there anytime he calls me. Before this call, he called when she was out of town. Before that, he called when he was left alone while she visited her parents. Before that, it was when he was on a business trip.

I can't help but feel like the other woman and can't figure out why he only calls me when she is gone?? Perhaps, she is a jealous person, I don't know. Perhaps there is more in his mind between us then I thought and maybe, just maybe, it will be revealed in time.

I care for him deeply and often wonder what would happen if we connected again and spent some real time together. When I don't hear from him for awhile, I find myself wanting to. I find myself wondering if he is OK and worrying about whether he feels abandoned in our friendship. I am very confused right now about my feelings for him and about him.

I'm just thinking of him tonight and putting it out there. Thanks for listening to my jumbled thoughts.


LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
4/4/2006 9:55 pm

You're welcome.

If you cannot ramble aimlessly here then where???...LOL

Good Luck and best wishes

lustytaurus


barbiebunny 36F
5597 posts
4/4/2006 10:37 pm

(huggs) one of those male mysteries I guess

Its good to be...ME


norprin5 55M

4/5/2006 9:24 am

sigh... *hugs*

King Nor XVIII


bardicman 50M

4/5/2006 11:29 am

--->hugs<----



I am not dead yet


curious082385 31F
4925 posts
4/7/2006 1:02 am

Of course we will listen to your thoughts, dear twin...jumbled or otherwise.
Just be careful please. With my ex, I found myself rationalizing why it was okay to be the other woman, why it was okay for him to only talk to me when it was convienent for him. I lost a lot of self respect during that time and begging for someone's attention is something I'll never let myself do again.
It's confusing...deep and true emotions usually are. Sometimes you simply have to take a deep breath, let go and trust that the proper actions will unfold to bring you to the place where you should be.


carebearluv2 41F

4/15/2006 11:19 pm

    Quoting LustyTaurus:
    You're welcome.

    If you cannot ramble aimlessly here then where???...LOL

    Good Luck and best wishes

    lustytaurus
thanks Lusty!


carebearluv2 41F

4/15/2006 11:19 pm

    Quoting barbiebunny:
    (huggs) one of those male mysteries I guess
Guess I need to get a new cabana boy barbie and solve the mystery! lol


carebearluv2 41F

4/15/2006 11:20 pm

sigh..thanks!


carebearluv2 41F

4/15/2006 11:21 pm

thanks bud!


carebearluv2 41F

4/15/2006 11:22 pm

    Quoting curious082385:
    Of course we will listen to your thoughts, dear twin...jumbled or otherwise.
    Just be careful please. With my ex, I found myself rationalizing why it was okay to be the other woman, why it was okay for him to only talk to me when it was convienent for him. I lost a lot of self respect during that time and begging for someone's attention is something I'll never let myself do again.
    It's confusing...deep and true emotions usually are. Sometimes you simply have to take a deep breath, let go and trust that the proper actions will unfold to bring you to the place where you should be.
That's where I am curious, in the breathing stage. Let's hope it never stops! I am not looking to rationalize his behavior, just to figure out why he behaves the way he does. I've spoken to him some more and will post updates shortly.


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