Insight into Bustychick4U2......  

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12/9/2005 11:32 am

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Insight into Bustychick4U2......

I don't know where this is going to go but I am in the mood to add something new here. Maybe like a journal entry or something.

I have been out of work for a year, not really looking but I put a few resumes out there and had no answers. I have called back on them as you should do when looking for a job but they just said they weren't hireing, YET.

Instead I have been writting and have finished not one but two books. Teen mysterys and I think they are good, but then if I didn't why would I write them. Hee Hee.

Anyway money has been REAL tight now that I haven't been bringing any in. As Chrismas draws closer I feel depressed that I can't buy gifts like I could before, but mostly I am upset that I have these stories ready to go and it is a little late to do anything about money now. I need to just be patient and get the stories to someone who can help me get them published. And there again a step as fallen into my lap.

A local author may be interested in helping me out. I had to do some final editing before I could send it her way and now that that is done tonight the story will work it's way towards her.

It seems as my LIFE LONG dream gets closer to becoming a reality the harder it is becoming to get by. My boyfriend is the skeptic when it comes to thinking an author can become a millionare, but I told him you don't have to be a millionare to pay the bills and go on a nice vacation.

When they say opposites attract I think they were specifically talking about me and my BF. We are the two sides of the same coin. We can't get away from eachother but we are useless if we are apart. He loves onion I hate it. I love to read and he has Dislexia so he hates to read. He loves T.V and I think it iss a waste of time. Not that I don't watch it but I can think of a million other things that I would like to be doing at that time too. He is totaly into cars and I would prefer a horse anyday!

He was my first and we have been together since. I have been with two other guys but I was so drunk both times I hardly remember the experiences. Not that I want to but I feel like I want more sexual experience. He has WAY more than I do, I was 17 the first time I had sex and he was much younger I know. Anyway I don't want to just up and leave him because I want new experience. So I have offered bringing another female into the bedroom. He likes the idea but I don't think he wants to be too involved in the planning process. And I think he is being picky about the women he wants to join us. I am no super model and would rather have a nice looking woman the first time so I don't feel like I am unimportant. Although I am confident and if the woman payed VERY good attention to me and perhaps lulled him along things may work out. I just want a woman who has done this before so she can guide us along. He says he has never been with two girls but one of his REALLY good friends from back when said that the two of them and three other guys had their turns with one girl on top of a hill one night. SO I know he isn't as pure as he thinks he is.

As you can see in my writting that I have a well developed imagination. It comes from MANY years of daydreaming. That and some real life stuff. But mostly I think of scenarios and midnight encounters and go from there if I like the way the scene goes.

To add to my frustrations we live with his mother STILL and that is how it has to be till I find another job. Well, we never had our own place but I can't wait. Once my writting pays off I hope we will have enough money to start looking. And from what I hear the home market may be looking up for the buyer soon. So maybe that is another step that will fall into place when needed.

Well I could sit here and write all day because that is what I do but I will close for now as there are some things I need to do today, and sitting in front of this comp isn't one of them.
But this turned out to be a nice place to vent SO FAR!

Until next time, Bye

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