A long talk with my grandma,  

bustychick4U2 37F
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6/10/2006 9:28 am

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7/20/2006 9:51 am

A long talk with my grandma,

Something I haven't done in a LONG time. My sis was having problems and called our grandma.

I got on the phone after her and my little brother spoke to her and my lil bro opened his mouth about what happened with me and my ex.

I wasn't sure if I would tell her but then I had too. I don't talk to her much and the last time I remember she was so controlling, way more than my mom had ever been.

But when I got on the phone she listened and was very helpful. She let me know that my ex was way too immature to be what I wanted. She said that he would probably never be ready to take the steps that I wanted him to take, and I had been a little depressed when the new guy called and was upset about reading how I wanted to be back in my Ex's arms.

I reread it and I see where I went wrong. I never mentioned that it was dreams I was having about trying to get the ex back. They were making me wake up depressed and lonely. What can I do?

I just want to wake up with someone beside me. I have NEVER gone with out sex before, not for this long. I guess I would call myself a nympho. And when the new guy wasn't calling I thought I had lost him or that he had ended up in jail for a while.

But he called to let me know he wasn't there and that he was upset about the blog. What can I say I was venting and lonely.

I didn't tell my grandma about the new guy or what is going on there I know she would have said to move out of that too but who knows maybe when I am sure things are going somewhere then I will get her opinion there. She basically confirmed that I don't need to and shouldn't go back to the Ex even if he got on his knees and proposed. Hehe.

And now I realize that I am better than that and I don't really want him, I want what I thought he would change into.

I don't know what I want from life just to be happy and have a family of my own. She thinks me and my sis should move in together but my sis wants to move in with her boyfriend and I don't think me being in there too would be a great situation.

My grandma says family needs to always stick together and that is what we are doing now. I just wish I didn't have to live here to do that.

So now I wait around up here till the new guy decides when he wants me to join him. I just don't know how long I can wait for sex, my body is driving me insane and he had said that he wasn't committed to me till I got down there, so I wonder if that applies to me as well. He says that actions always bring consequences and I know they do but what the hell!

Okay done with this blog for now as I need to shower and eat breakfast. Hope all have a GRRREAT day and be happy!!

drnick20054 28M

6/10/2006 11:24 am

dont just have sex with someone for the sake of sex though

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