wait til you reach the center  

busty_me 40F
194 posts
4/24/2006 12:54 am

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wait til you reach the center

Too fucken nice

My tits are too fucken nice

I am too fucken nice

That's what I say in the mirror. Why can't I just be average. Average temperment Average cup size Average brain Average blemishes Average thoughts Average shoe size Average height Average eyebrows . I want to be on the very top of that goddamned bell curve.

Cause if you're not then you're on the lowest part in either direction. I want to be on top.

I don't know why I'm ranting... but sometimes you just need to. I like myself, but just want to be unmemorable yet maybe not. I'm in my own exile because I can't take on the full time responsibility of being known.

I'll let you digest that while I take a chance to digest it too.

I let myself be known and then vanish into nothingness. Now you see me, now you don't.. Here today, gone tomorrow... It must really suck to be born into royalty, you never have that choice. They have obligations which I will never have. Although anyone can debate that if you think about it. But I will not bore you with a fake debate with myself.

I guess what really is annoying me is that I haven't found anyone who really can relate to me and realize that I am really nice (for real) with really deep thought (for real) I am really a huge ball of string with a sweet center. Unravel me and then enjoy the sweets.....lol

well that is enough of the rant for today... til next time, please enjoy the reruns of previous blogs if this one didn't tickle your fancy.


Ginnung 37M

4/24/2006 10:54 am

I can't help but wonder what inspired this. It sounds like you wish to vanish into obscurity, but at the same time want someont to somehow fight past that and really get to know you. It's almost as though you want two opposed extremes.

Are you sure you haven't found someone who can relate to you, or have you not allowed anyone to? I spent most of my life feeling alone and unwanted, and I eventually realized that a shortage of people wasn't the problem. I wasn't letting myself get close to people for fear of being abandoned and hurt.

At the same time, I've been lucky enough to find a large group of like-minded people. Maybe you're just looking in the wrong places. People tend to clique, and if you're only associating with the same clique that don't work for you, you end up meeting the same incompatible mindset over and over again. Meeting completely different people is a lot more difficult, but can also be a lot more rewarding.

I'm starting to ramble, so I'll stop there. Here's hoping something in my musings will offer some insight.

busty_me 40F

4/28/2006 2:41 am

All feedback is appreciated. good bad or ugly. I just need to find my right clique in adulthood. (other than the sex freaks...lol) Maybe I'll join a 5pin bowling league... will sleep on that.. goodnight

4uoralrewards 56M
437 posts
5/16/2006 7:38 am

Join a bowling league? Well, that's a metaphor for life isn't it?

Are you going to strike out...now, is that good or bad.

Will you spare, are you a spare, will someone spare you.

OH NO, a split!

What about a headpin, a punch, what does it all mean.

Ouch, another corner, but that's okay, you can always spare it up.

Stay out of the gutters. Here's hoping you have a perfect game!

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