this posting is not for the small minded. Read with Care.  

busty_me 40F
194 posts
1/14/2006 6:01 pm

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this posting is not for the small minded. Read with Care.

Now is the only time that exists.

The here and now.

Right here, right now.

Tomorrow may never come.

Yesterday might not ever be remembered again.

Why am I typing these thoughts. Because I can. The reality is that there are so many choices and who I choose to be with or not to be with is one of those great many choices I have.

I just want to reinstate the fact that it is nothing personal if I don't want to have sex with you a day from now. I live in the here and now. If I want you today, I may not want you tomorrow. But there will be somebody, someday, that I will want every day of the week.

What I am really looking for is someone who does not have emotional attachments and can wander the world with me.

I truly love my family, but if I don't see them for a year, its not heartbreaking. I know I will see them again. I am in a cycle... My whole life is a cycle. But I want a new cycle to incorporate into my life.

Just imagine a elipse. and then another and another and another ( you get my point) What will you have eventually? In my minds eye, its a completed oval with different colours. No I'm not on

I want someone who is a free spirit and can do unorthodox things in life.

Create a new reality and feel fine doing it.

Someone who knows its me they have been missing deeply in their soul.

Someone who is fine just being in each others presence.

Someone who can let their mind wander outside of the box and have me reassure that it is brilliant.

I do feel like I am only a half. I do believe that my other half is out there. I do believe that my left brain controls me when I am awake and my right brain controls me when I am asleep.
I need my half to come and show me how to use both halves at the same time.

The story of my life is that I should have died at least 500 times over. This is a low estimate.

What I may be trying to say is that I am put here for some sort of reason and my unorthodox way of trying to find a solution is by putting it in a blog on AdultFriendFinder.

I have a difficult time making an emotional attachment. I use sex to have a sort of attachment. There must be people like me on this site who can relate to me if they are doing the exact same thing as me.

And if there is. I want you with me.

F1reman6969 49M

1/18/2006 8:43 pm

I hear and feel with you all the pleasures of the day as we drift through this landscape of life and time. As you say, connections are made and everything is interconnected. We travel as if on separate parallel rails never crossing but always connected by those we have touched and are touching everyday. We may or may not ever make contact, but know that we are connected.

Lovinlifemystery 56M
1 post
1/26/2006 2:45 pm

I like what you write. Here are some comments.

Right here, Right now. Presence is all I have. Heaven and Hell are my choice in any given ‘right now’. The cup is always full. What’s its full of differs from moment to moment and I get to choose what I fill it with most of the time. Water, Air, almost anything. LOL. Yesterday and tomorrow are simply illusions evolving from fear or faith and grown out of a desire to Love or be Loved.

After a lifetime on a purpose to interview the most influential people on the planet Napoleon Hill wrote, "Ultimately nothing matters"

Nothing is right or wrong, good or bad, black or white except thinking makes it so. I think Shakespeare wrote it similar. Black and white are simply shades of gray. When I mix all the colors of a rainbow, what color do I get? Gray.

Life is a process of growth. How many millions of lives does it take to discover a new dimension? Some Hindus think millions of them.

I love living in the moment. It’s the only place I can find true peace of mind. It’s all I truly have. I honor my emotions and my thoughts combining into my intentions, intuitions and inspirations as my spirit expressing itself right here, right now.

What do you think?

rm_darkweld 59M
15 posts
1/31/2006 6:23 pm

Its nothing new, all you need is a good listener, and some undurstanding.

rm_darkweld 59M
15 posts
1/31/2006 6:24 pm

Its nothing new, all you need is a good listener, and some understanding.

Ineedsexnow995 38M
1 post
2/14/2006 1:55 pm

I like the way you think, I always live in the moment...there may never be another. Life is there for the living and all you have to do is take it...let me know if you want to chat

4uoralrewards 56M
437 posts
2/15/2006 12:33 pm

Very introspective. It's been some time since you've posted, so some sort of catharsis must be going on....

Hope that all is well and hope to see a new post from you soon.

sexmachine69675 41M
2 posts
2/19/2006 10:02 pm

Well i know all of that.

Do you want sex from this system???

get back if you do

Ginnung 37M

2/21/2006 1:59 am

That sounds terribly familiar. I 'm in a similar position, and maybe describing where I am will help you figure out where you are.

People get very confused when emotions get involved. It's almost like most of us are so love-starved that when we find it we feel like we have to grab it so tightly that we end up strangling it. Love has become a rope we use to tie ourselves into relationships, into families, and inevitably into obligations we don't want to keep.

And that's really not the way I think it should be. Love should be something that sets us free rather than tieing us down.

I'm in love with at least four women. Three of them aren't available, and the fourth isn't interested. In the typical case, this seems to be a cause for stress and angst. "Why don't you love me?" "What can I do to make you love me?" "I just can't live without you." Why do people do that to themselves?

Instead, I revel in it. I express it with great regularity, and my life is a far brighter place because they're in it. And that goes both ways. There's no awkwardess or angst because I don't need to possess or be possessed by those I love.

The tricky part, of course, is in finding somebody sexually compatible who feels the same way. Too many of us are still stuck in the fairy-tale concept of "happily ever after," looking for something that they think will make them happy when it will really just allow them to pretend not to be miserable.

Well, enough of me ranting for one day. Here's hoping my rambling has been helpful, or at least thought-provoking. I know that yours has.

4uoralrewards 56M
437 posts
3/1/2006 8:51 am

I noticed that you were online today, after having your profile turned off for some time.

A little rest maybe, time to set the emotional clock to zero and start again?

Whatever it is, I hope you are well and all is good with you.

robT1979 37M
4 posts
3/16/2006 11:34 pm

let me know if your interested?
give me a shout

Ginnung 37M

3/26/2006 1:38 pm

After a recent break-up, I've been thinking a lot of about how love ties into relationships. In doing so, I put together a list of 7 questions to help me explore what I think love means, and what impact the difference between my idea of love and my now-ex's had.

It's posted on my blog. It may be of use to you, or it may not be. It should get you thinking, though, and that's really the point as far as I'm concerned.

kandj235 45M/49F
4 posts
3/30/2006 6:50 pm

Blah Blah Blah, most people can't even identify their emotional attachments, or know that the fact that they have them means that they are broken. Very few people can live in the now, I'm not one of those, but I do know if you've got one foot in today and one in tomorrow, you're shitting all over today. You can post a pseudo-intellectual blog and get a bunch of horseshit answers, but you can not create a new reality just because you're extremely hot. Learn how to deal with your reality, the one you can't create or control, learn to live knowing you control nothing and hope for acceptance of what you cant create or control, and maybe you're close to the now.
Very nice Bustiness by the way.

sexfiendking 45M

7/11/2006 8:16 pm

Wassup Busty I feel you in more ways than one, i,m a nomad I don,t like being locked down and for that same reason I stay on the calm side of the law (I LOVE MY FREEDOM ) UNTIL THEN I,M SEARCHING FOR WHAT,S RIGHT BY MY LAWS .I,m a 6,2 236lb black man that loves sex with white females .I don,t want phone numbers or adresses ,just steamy ,sweaty all over the house ,fuckin ,suckin ,eating ,rubbing,full fledge erotic sex with no strings or questions ,just conversation while all up in the ora of us becoming one and then you over and over and this is true shit i put that on all I LOVE . AND THIS IS MY QUARANTEE HOLLA AT ME IF YOU,RE INTERRESTED CAUSE I,M SHO-NUF DIGGING YO PROFILE NOW CUM DIG MINE .ONE

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