Feeling in need of something.  

brute472 74M
1871 posts
8/6/2006 11:38 pm

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10/18/2006 3:17 am

Feeling in need of something.

Isn't it awful when you know you want something but you just can't put your finger on it.
That is the feeling that is annoying me at the moment.
As I gave up smoking five or six years ago it could be that I wan't a smoke.
When I stopped smoking I had been smoking about 40 ciggies a day and I started while still at school so I smoked for many a year.
It got so I couldn't climb a few stairs without puffing and wheezing.
Since giving up I am so much healthier it scares me.
But what really does scare me is knowing I could pick up a cigarette and smoke it right now and by tomorrow I would be back to puffing 40 a day again.
It really gives me the shits when someone says to me "I can have a couple of smokes and then not have any for the next couple of months.
Well I Can't I am addicted and I guess a smoker in recovery.
The change I have noticed in my behaviour is the addiction to this site, I now get up have a shower have a cup of tea and then log in to see what my many friends have been up to whilst I slept.
Finding time to fit in my day job between visits to this site is getting harder all the time.
Still I wouldn't change it for the world as I love my friends here, and I know when I'm down I can rely on them to make me whole again.
I mean isn't that worth heaps making friends that you may never see but know if you did drop in on them you would be warmly welcomed and you guys know who you are I don't need to name you all but I did miss out one of my all time favourites on my earlier blog and I must apologise profusely Bucfannn I am sorry I don't know how your name was left off.
I don't write my blogs every day as I find I get consumed reading and posting on others but I try to be fairly regular and I love to read the posts I recieve.
Yep I am thoroughly addicted I mean where else can you find a daughter a lover a friend with such certainty as here on AdultFriendFinder or Passion whichever you prefer to call it.
Love you all, have a nice day

brute472 74M
3480 posts
8/9/2006 1:52 am

    Quoting ShayeDK:
    Much better for you to be addicted to us, than smoking!
    Although I have been known to leave a few men smoldering when I am through with them....

I should be so lucky beautiful lady.

brute472 74M
3480 posts
8/8/2006 1:47 am

Baroness - I love dragons they are so cute.

Nic - luv you too baby.

twirly_girl 47F

8/7/2006 10:52 am

Love ya too, Dad.


BaronessK 52F

8/7/2006 7:05 am

Actually, ya know, all the shrinkadinks {RL} say I am 'textbook normal'...which is more than a bit 'scary'...cuz there is really no such thing! It takes all the so called 'normal' attributes of EVERYone...yet no one person has all or even most of the qualities...except me, evidently. That, and my oriental zodiac sign is the only mythical creature they have {Dragon...cuz I GUESS they're not real.... }.

brute472 74M
3480 posts
8/7/2006 3:09 am

Trading one addiction for another..I am sooooooooo addicted..I am worried about myself too.

You may be addicted but so are all your readers. Hugs!

Well, according to my latest posts...I'm in a mental health/psycho hospital...but ... no, I don't consider myself addicted! You have a wonderful day, huh!

If your phyco then I want to be just like you and all your personalities. Keep on blogging baby!

BaronessK 52F

8/7/2006 12:47 am

Well, according to my latest posts...I'm in a mental health/psycho hospital...but ... no, I don't consider myself addicted! You have a wonderful day, huh!

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