Happy Birthday to me,....  

broadluvs77 52F
73 posts
9/12/2005 4:38 am

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Happy Birthday to me,....

Well, today is my birthday. That's right. And, guess what? I'm not going to be spending it with anyone special to me. I'm not going to be romanced, nor am I going to be held in anyone's arms for hours. I haven't had sex in a about a week, and then it wasn't the fantastic, mind-numbing, lose yourself in the other person sex that I'd been having with my latest lover. Don't get me wrong - it was good sex, and I have no real complaints there. The company was great and we laughed and rolled around and had good fun. Anyway, things have gone really hinky with my lover. He is a married man, and the reality of being in love with another woman is taking its toll on him. We had a lovers' crisis a couple of weeks ago that led to a few tears on my end. I think it hurt him much more to know I was crying than it hurt me. I really don't know what's going to happen as far as our love affair goes. I still love him and my body craves his touch. I know he feels the same about me. All I can say is that the timing of the whole crisis is just wrong. It really takes the celebration out of my day.

TheQuietGuy2005 54M
2386 posts
9/12/2005 5:40 am

I'm sorry to hear your birthday feels so flat. I always feel birthdays should be celebrated to the hilt: most annual celebrations are about everyone whereas this is about celebrating you and all that makes you special and unique.

I understand the conflict though, all too well, and I can only wish that you find your way through this chaotic crisis as easily as possible.

keystonenc 43M
144 posts
9/12/2005 4:09 pm

Keep your head up and stay positive. I am sure you will find new and wonderful lover sooner rather than later. We all go through funks in life.

Happy Birthday!!

broadluvs77 52F

9/12/2005 4:20 pm

Thanks for the supportive words guys. My day has been pretty good after all. No birthday sex, but hey - I did get to lay naked on a table with 20 people watching my every move for about an hour (I'm studying Massage Therapy and was the teacher's model today). All my classmates sang Happy Birthday to me, and when I got home from class, I had the funniest little birthday message from my sis - she sang a song she had made up about my birthday. So, I'm feeling much better this evening. I'm supposed to meet a single man later this week. Maybe he'll be the kind of lover I need - for a while at least.

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