Former Beauty Queens & Late Night Cryings  

blackstiletto 33F
122 posts
4/15/2006 1:03 pm

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Former Beauty Queens & Late Night Cryings

I was invited to a former Miss Malaysia's going away party 2 nights ago and I SWEAR I have never seen so many beautiful people under one roof in my life. It really makes you think if these people actually have any 'unattractive' friends at all. Funny how I landed myself in the very industry that promotes the very sentiments that I'm trying to disprove. No matter what, I always try too see the good and beautiful side of people regardless of how they appear. But working amongst the most beautiful people in the country (or world) CAN NOT be good for your self-esteem because I know right now I need someone to splash my face with a huge barrel of just that. The picture you see on the right don't even come close to justifying how I really look. It's just the product of an hour's worth of make-up and hair-styling. And not to mention really nice dramatic lighting (thanks to my mom's kitchen, *lol*). Underneath all that, I'm really just... simple. Do you know that I hardly get stares on the streets sans my make-up? This dude e-mailed me on AdultFriendFinder going something like, "Oh my God, I think you're gorgeous! And I love your profile shows you're intelligent yada yada yada..."

Sometimes I wonder if these people would have bothered writing to me if put up a picture of an unattractive, 300-pound woman instead?

Anyway, it's 3 in the morning and my body's aching. I have bruises and scratches all over my chest and arms from a VERY bad day and my eyes make me look like I'm slowly turning into a panda. I had a good cry earlier to drown my sorrows and thankfully, one friend answered this crazy girl's call for comfort. Even if it was in the middle of the scary night. An hour later, he gave me the best laugh I've had in weeks. It's really been just one of those days. Sometimes I think I need psychiatric help. Or maybe some ice-cream.

rm_smosmof2 67M
3240 posts
4/15/2006 2:18 pm

You're probably right that you wouldn't get that kind of response if you put up a picture of an unattractive 300 pound woman, but that isn't necessarily because of the visual.

From my experience, anyone (man or woman) who weighs 300 lbs (unless they're 7 feet tall) has some kind of major emotional problem that is being manifested with a compulsion to eat. Same is true of heavy drinker, heavy smokers, or drug addicts.

The issue of "attractive" has more to do with esteem. Even someone who is overweight can make themselves look better with a little (?) effort. Someone who doesn't care enough to make themselves presentable is probably not a pleasant person to deal with.

Then there's the other side of the coin. I've known beautiful women who were so obsessed with their appearance that every public appearance (like going out for dinner) required hours of preperation, and then everything had to be, and stay, perfect. Heaven forbid that it be raining out, because that would spoil everything, or if it was to humid, that carefully coifed hair would collapse and everything would become a disaster.

Of course, anyone who's read my blog may wonder what I'm doing commenting on other people's esteem problems. I call 'em as I see 'em, and I'll certainly admit to my own flaws and weaknesses.

Dark_Cat_MCMLXXV 41M
290 posts
4/15/2006 2:24 pm

LOL! Some of the people from here are so desperated they would do anything to get laid.

Being in the company of beautiful people makes you feel beautiful. Feeling about yourself beautiful makes you more attractive. That's a general fact!


rm_ProX2004 46M
7 posts
4/16/2006 10:54 pm

My belief is Beauty is inner self in the heart & soul. I always believe is internal rather than external. A Man or woman can be damm beautiful or handsome or also unattractive but no virtue of moralility just doesn't sum up 2 me.

btw..., i did sms you this nite when u just got home after a hectic day?

anyway..., i don't know yor abt sorrows.., whatever it is....we hv 2 move on in life! it's ok 2 cry..., does good for the heart & soul.
fyi...., I 2 cry once a while.

have fun in life,

wet_pussy4ever 43F
3059 posts
4/17/2006 12:36 pm

hey hun... i believe one has it's own beauty... i myself find tat m not so beautifull bt it's d inner aprt which counts.. ur personality.. & i think tat u r a gr8 person & fren to b wit.. so bugger off wit wat others thinks.. yeah some men r really desparate.. they think they can find theier miss beauty in here bt well, they dun know wat they r heading for so, dun let tat damper ur day...

think of it tat u r d most beautiful person even if u dun think u r others won't mind if they r truly ur fren

dun care wat others say or think.. as long as u know wat u r & feel


rm_ProX2004 46M
7 posts
4/18/2006 6:02 pm


Having a nice beautiful personality is good. But it's still different ball game from the Sex World. Pysical Attractiveness & Desire still plays a part.

rm_boogieass 46M
23 posts
4/24/2006 5:35 am

Here's a weird but true story... Every time I get to thinking I'm pretty good looking (usually after a workout), I almost always without fail run into some guy who makes me feel like a four-eyed geek. And every time I get to feeling like the ugly duckling, I'll invariably run into another guy who makes me feel like Adonis.

I guess what I'm saying is, cliched as it sounds, beauty is in the eyes and the soul. Talk to these beauty queens long enough and you'll find someone as screwed up as you and me and everyone else.

Be good to yourself. And check out American Splendour on Astro in May.

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