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Poetry: Holy versus Horny
Poetry: Holy versus Horny
“Holy versus Horny”
Don’t you want to kiss dating goodbye?
Or sleep on a bare mattress, with no more sheets?
Aren’t you having fun, enjoying your season?
How long has it been ‒ ten years and then some?
I’m having so much fun, just myself and God
That’s all that I need, don’t think that I’m odd.
I’m complete as can be, nothing is lacking.
Don’t you believe this ‒ I surely am lying.
Let’s flip the script…
I’m an angel in the choir, but a devil in the streets
My undercover life is the neighborhood freak.
These days I even come out of the shadows.
I don’t have to hide it. Everybody knows.
See, we’re only human, and we all will sin.
So it’s okay to have sex, every now and then.
It would be unreasonable to expect any less.
This, too is a lie, a genuine mess.
Now let’s be real…
The life that I live is unacceptable to all.
There’s no one I can turn to, no one to call.
The world can’t accept that I will not have sex.
And the church can’t deal with my horniness.
Neither holiness nor horniness can be denied.
Both are part of me, and that I can’t hide.
Balancing the two is my responsibility
The reality is I am both holy and horny.
Copyright © 2002
My comments: Obviously I’m being very sarcastic in the first two parts of this poem. I feel a little betrayed because the way I see the church mentality, it does not leave room for a man to grow up in the church. Everything is fine until puberty, but then there is this huge open void of what to do with your developing sexuality and there are no answers until you're married.
Modern church theology/practice seems designed to reach the wayward adult male who has been an absolute dog since puberty, save him, and then let him pick his choice of the single churchwomen, who have been waiting in stasis (somehow you all seem to have that capability) and the two get married and live happily ever after (or until divorce where the cycle can repeat). That has left me without good role models and I have far too many questions that have no answers.
3/20/2006 6:19 am
this has been the dilemma for years, for centuries even. The church can get you saved, which is key, but what then? Women in their peaks of sexuality are forced to live at the ater on Sundays repenting for the sins they committed on the night before which was only satisfying what they really desired. Fortunately, sexual sin will not keep us out of heaven. If it did, we are all doomed.|
3/20/2006 9:35 pm
I love what you're thinking here. My question is do we have to sin to satisfy what we desire? Or is there a way for an unmarried person to achieve sexual satisfaction that is not forbidden by God? I think there is such a way. It's just a matter of finding it.|
I'm going to follow this up in a new post - "The Four Pressures"
3/20/2006 9:40 pm
One other thought. Lickmeluvme69 mentioned that women live on the alter because of this dilemna, but is this dilemna why most men are NOT in church at all? As I'll describe in the next post, this dilemna creates a dangerous contradictory state of existence. Something has to give.|
3/20/2006 10:15 pm
I liked your poem and I think we all fight this battle of how to live our lives and still remain loyal to God..|
I do believe in God and I think he wants all of us to be happy but sex has touched the church in a most negative way...it's hard to keep your faith today with all the temptations in the world...but I believe it can be done...who to be true to... yourself or God?...I think God is a loving God who forgives us for all our sins.... if you believe in heaven (one would say follow the Ten Commandments and you'll get there...But what happens if there is no heaven ?..(then one might have to say live your life while here on earth and be happy because in the afterlife one will not be the same being with the same memories ....will not have the same family and what happens if we allow our life to pass by and like so many books in history find out that there is no afterlife this is my dilemma
4/7/2006 5:53 am
That is a good point to not judge the paths of others. I am learning to let others follow the path they are on. I can't live their lives, I can only wish them the best.|
But I don't understand why the man you loved felt he had to choose between God and you. I know there are things he could not do with you before marriage, but there are no restrictions after marriage. And for the Christian man, the love for your wife is supposed to be the SAME as your love for God, not subsidiary. A Christian man is supposed to love his wife as Christ loved the church. That's way beyond the typical view of husband/wife love. That is total dedication no matter what. Of course that means a Christian man has to be really careful who he chooses to marry, but once that choice is made there is no more indecision. (At least that's how it's supposed to be...and how I plan to be.)