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My Secret About the Club
My Secret About the Club
This is a sexual secret about a small portion of my life.
Am I wrong for the sensual grind? To tell you the truth, when I go to the club, I generally go alone and with one primary purpose ‒ to have an orgasm from grinding on the dance floor with a beautiful woman who is willing to dance sensually with me. (This is not necessarily the case if I go with a group or for a special occasion.)
Clearly, this is not the reason most people go to the club. Some go just to have a good time dancing, nothing more. Some go to get drunk. Some go to spend time with friends. Some go to blow off steam. Some go to get high. Some go to fight. Some go to profile ‒ to see and be seen. Some go to find someone to take home for a one-night-stand. Some go to find their mate. Some of these are things I would do; others are things I would never do. You can ask me which is which if you want to know.
But for me, after a week of unaddressed horniness, I go to the one place where I have a reasonably good chance of finding a woman who enjoys pressing her body against my erection and grinding.
It’s simple. I try to seek out women who are already dancing sensually with others. Thus, I’m asking nothing of her that she isn’t already doing. And she’s free to move on if she’s the least bit uncomfortable. I wear loose clothing to enhance the stimulation and a condom to catch the mess.
It’s safe. There is no risk of STDs, no risk of unplanned pregnancies, no risk of emotional baggage. And relief of my horniness. Sexual, but without actual sex.
It is sufficient for now. I do not believe this is all life has to offer me and I will never be satisfied until I have a real relationship, but for now, it helps me get through the current phase of my life.
While I sometimes wish I could form a greater connection with some of the women I’ve done this with, and I often wish for a consistent partner in this (dance partner with limited, in-club-only benefits?), I am grateful for every woman who dances with me in this manner and I pray blessings in each and every one of their lives. I also wish/hope that I can give the women I dance with some physical pleasure while they are dancing with me. That is when this is truly the best.
(One of my fantasies for when I get married is to return to one of these clubs with my wife and not simply grind, but actually have sex on a dark, obscured dance floor somewhere. I know, many have already done this. I might not even want to by the time I’m actually married. But for now, it’s something I look forward to trying.)
3/27/2006 7:27 am
I believe that if you are going to do something,then do it all the way.|
6/7/2006 8:35 am
Whew, I'm not sure what to think on this one. I was going to say that I am married to someone like you until I read this post...it goes a little deep...wait I think I am married to someone just like you.|
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